Monday, November 28, 2011

Happy Holidays


I’m in a crowded room of family and friends. 
There is caroling, warm conversation, and laughter; 
everyone at last being together.
My heart is waltzing during the time of wishes becoming real, 
during the time of miracles coming true.

The colorful tree is aglow, 
dear love ones are kissing underneath the mistletoe,
the cheerful children are playing out in the snow;
creating memories that will fill us with so much joy.
God is beyond great, let’s celebrate!

(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 

Happy holidays everyone! 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

What I'm Thankful For

I'm thankful for my family and friends, for a roof over my head, for food in my tummy.  I'm thankful that everyone is always there for each other, no matter the distance. I'm surrounded by great people. Happy Thanksgiving!!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Random Thoughts

At times, I love being on my own but other times, I need a friend on my side.
At times, I’m comfortable with who I am but other times, insecurities haunt my mind.
I’m not picture perfect but really, who is?
Just walk away if you can’t handle this.
Critics are all around,
most of the time, their words are just a waste of sound.
I’m like a red rose in a field of white daisies,
At times, it’s hard to see but at the end of day, I know that individuality is the real beauty.

(c)Lena Holdman, all reserved 2011

Coffee, late-night writing..just popped in my head. (:

Sunday, November 13, 2011

For Kortney, Jeff, and Jay (a cover of Eminem's "Hailie's Song")


*speaking*: I can’t sing
but I feel like singin’
I wanna freakin’ sing,
cause I’m happy…yeah, I’m happy. 
I have the greatest friends ever!
Check it out.

*singing*: Verse 1: Some days I sit, starin’ out at the window, 
watchin’ this world pass me by. 
Sometimes I just wish for more.
I almost break down and cry.

Sometimes I think I’m crazy,
I’m crazy, oh so crazy.
Does anybody listen to me? 

But then I see them next to me, 
Suddenly I’m not crazy. 
It all makes sense when I look into their eyes.  

Chorus:  Sometimes it feels like the world’s on my shoulders
or like no one understands me, 
cause sometimes it feels the world’s almost over, 
But then I see my friends smile at me.

Verse 2: We’ve had grown up together, 
becoming a family over time.
They never change or criticize me 
But others don’t get my eccentric thoughts,
refusing to see my real side. 

I act like that crap don’t phase me, 
inside it drives me crazy. 
My insecurities could eat me alive.

But then I see them next to me, 
Suddenly I’m not crazy, 
It all makes sense when I look into their eyes. 


*rapping*: Verse 3: Kortney, Jeff, and Jay,
the ones who have been there come what may, my second family that went through the good and the bad. 
Yeah it’s true, this has always been a rocky, dramatic friendship but I swear it’ll never sink. Like glue, we will always stick. We will never break and they’ll always have my back.
This song is for the most awesome best friends that anyone could have: Kortney, the protective Mother Hen who would never leave me behind; Jeff, the little jokester who makes me smile when tears come to my eyes; And Jay, our older brother who reminds me that there’s more out there, To them, all I can say is Thank you, thank you, thank you. Without you I don’t know what I would do. Your friendship is the best gift, the weight of the world is always lifted. 

*singing*: Verse 4: Now it don’t feel like the world’s on my shoulders,
Now everyone listens to me, 
cause my friends make me feel like a solider,
Nothing can hurt me when they’re by me. 

*speaking*: Hey guys, I’ve never told you this but all three of you mean a lot to me. If you ever need me, I’ll be right there no matter what. I love you guys. xxx 

(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011
*Eminem and Shady Records owns the original song "Hailie's Song", not me. I wrote a cover*.

I was listening to Eminem today so I thought it would be fun to rewrite a song. Even though some of the words are slightly sad, I actually wanted tell how happy I am to have such awesome friends.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Happy Birthday Steven!


Dear Steven, 

Happy birthday!! How are you? I’m thinking about you today. I miss your blond jokes, I miss your dorky songs. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about our times at lunchtime or on the bus and smile. Thank you for being a friend and always making me laugh. I miss you and I love you. 


(Jeff wants to say something too) 

Dear Steven, 

I miss you sooo much. You were like a brother to me. Thank you being a pal, my good friend. We will see each other again. R.I.P. pal. 


Tuesday, November 8, 2011

My stereo broke!!!

My old stereo finally broke for good tonight. The CD player door won't close. I still have the ipod dock with a CD player but it's sort of sad. I've had that stereo forever. My stereo and I always had a love-hate relationship. I swear that thing had a mind of its own but now it's gone. I'm bummed out.

Believe in Peter Pan

Wendy, John, and Michael Darling from Bloomsbury, London aren’t the only ones who believes in Peter Pan. Children of all ages believe the tales of Neverland, the adventures of Peter Pan, the Lost Boys, and Tinker Bell; their exhilarating battles against Captain Hook and the pirates. All we need is faith, trust, and pixie dust! Even though people try to mock it, they can not kill the fun and innocence of Peter Pan. We’ll just say, “I believe, I believe, I believe!”

(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 

J.M. Barrie, you rocked!

I had a nightmare that someone was trying to kill Peter, saying he was lying. I kept fighting and screaming, "I believe!" I decided to write this afterwards. I'll love Peter Pan forever.

Stop the rape and torture of lesbians in Ecuador.

Dear Family and Friends,

It's shocking that this is happening in 2011: At 207 "clinics" across
Ecuador, lesbians are held captive, raped, tortured, starved and beaten in
an attempt to make them straight.

But far from being clandestine, this systematic brutalization of women
happens in plain sight, with the tacit approval of the government of

We know that the Ecuadoran government is sensitive to international public
pressure -- they already shut down a small handful of clinics in response
to public outrage when the international press first learned of the
existence of these clinics.

But we have to keep the pressure on the Ecuadoran government until they
close every single clinic that continues to facilitate the torture and
rape of women.

I told the Ecuadoran Minister of Public Health Dr. David Chiriboga to
investigate and shut down all remaining 207 ex-lesbian "clinics." I hope
you will too. You can sign the petition at the link below.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Michael Jackson's Doctor Guilty - ABC News

Michael Jackson's Doctor Guilty - ABC News

What do you think? I think that Justice was served. From what I heard from the trial, I think that Murray was reckless and gave Michael highly dangerous medicine.

Thursday, November 3, 2011



Sometimes I wonder when it’s my turn to explore this mysterious world,
Sometimes I just long for all of my amazing dreams to come true. 
The love, the sparkle; 
sometimes I want it all.
Sometimes I drown in my own sorrow;
But then I see the hope of tomorrow. 
Just sometimes, just sometimes…

(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 

This is a diary entry that turned into a poem. I at times write in rhyme or with rhythm without realizing it so I decided to post it.