Thursday, February 15, 2018


Please don't make gun violence commonplace
and make peace and our sense of security just an once upon a time in the history pages.

At first, I didn't want to write about the Florida shooting that happened yesterday because I felt like all the media was glorifying this tragedy too much but I have to say something. It's so devastating that seventeen high school students and teachers were killed. My thoughts and prayers go out to the families of the victims. This is so messed up! We should do more. I won't discuss or debate about gun control laws and/or mental illness issues but I do think that the government should be a little more proactive with keeping people safe. Shootings like these shouldn't become so commonplace. 

Smooches and think Tink. 💋 Stay safe, love each other.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

My February 14th

The video/song above is hilarious and relatable. ⇧ I love it! 

Y'all know that I despise Valentine's Day! It's not because I'm single (well, it's part of the reason, lol) but it's mostly because I think that it's a completely commercial holiday. Well, instead of being bitter about it, I'm going to celebrate the day my own way. 

I won't say "Happy Valentine's Day", I'll say "Happy Wednesday" today. 
Spend time with my family. 
Have a Pepsi float (vanilla ice cream and Pepsi soda). 
Watch horror movies, watch Tim Burton movies, watch Shane Dawson's conspiracy videos. 

Smooches and think Tink! 💋

Thursday, February 8, 2018

No More CDs?

USA Today Article: 

Best Buy will stop selling CDs this summer because more and more people are streaming music online. I even listen to my own music on Spotify, Youtube, or itunes now. I love CDs though. I always collect them. It's sort of sad that Best Buy will be doing this but I rarely bought them there because they were too damn expensive at Best Buy, lol. 😄 

Smooches and think Tink! 💋 

Sunday, January 28, 2018

What We Own (a poem)

What We Own  

We are now, the past, the future. 

Our friendship will be something what history will gladly remember. 
We don't listen what others are saying or follow the latest trends, 
we rock out to the beat to our own drum and just do us. 
Are people hating on this? 
Oh, come on, 
go ahead and let them, 
Let's just have some fun! 

If you're about to fall down, 

I'll catch you before you hit the ground. 
If you're about to drown, 
I'll dive under and give you my air. 
People might not understand us, 
Throwing their sticks and stones
but the fight is on, 
Let's show them what we're made of, 
what we always have owned within! 

(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2018 

Poet Notes: I heard this poem as a song in a dream last night. In the dream, I was in an all-girl punk rock band and no one knew our true identities. We played and wrote our own music but we also fought crime and investigated paranormal activity. We had fighting skills and magic powers too. It was like a mixture of Jem and the Holograms, Mighty Morphin Power Rangers, and Hannah Montana but on acid and steroids, lol. 

Smooches and think Tink! 💋

Friday, January 26, 2018

Friday of Randomness

Today, I went shopping and bought a Minnie Mouse Tsum Tsum plush (I collect them). Then, since outside was gloomy, rainy, and spooky, (sexy vampire weather), I watched Twilight, while I ate dinner and drank coffee. I then put back on my Peter Pan t-shirt after a shower, watched Youtube, and chatted on Twitter.

⇩⇩Now, look at my funny conspiracy that made up last night. ⇩ 😄⇩  

Conspiracy Theory: Is Shane Dawson really Peter Pan? They look so alike sometimes that it's uncanny! 
(This theory is just for fun 😁). 

Smooches and think Tink! 💋

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

a Word from a Professional Fan-girl (Shane Promo)

See...even Peter Pan thinks that Shane Dawson is an awesome youtuber! Don't fly home to Never Never Land without showing Shane some love and support!! Subscribe to his channel:

Buy his merch at:

Sign a petition to get more of Shane's videos monetized again: 

Follow him on Twitter: 

You might be wondering why I made a collage of Peter Pan and Shane Dawson. Well, first of all, they're my two favorite people (even though one of them is a fictional character 😁) so why not combine the two? Second of all, sometimes when Shane grins, he looks like Peter Pan. I guess that I can say that Shane Dawson is my Peter Pan (you have my permission to laugh and/or cringe at that statement 😄 but I think that it's adorable 🤗). Third of all, other fans have been posting pictures and videos of themselves wearing his shirts, advertising his merch and showing support. I just wanted to do something different. Plus, the thought of me talking on camera terrifies me, lol, and I take the worse selfies on the planet.  

Smooches and think Tink! 💋

Friday, January 19, 2018

Just Another Happy Friday

I had such a happy day. I woke up on a funny note this morning. I had a dream that Shane Dawson tweeted me and followed me on Twitter. Then, he came to visit me and we filmed videos together. After an awesome visit, he invited me to come to L.A. with him and Ryland. I was so happy that I woke up laughing and yelled: "Damn it, I wanted that to be real!" Lol!! 😁

Later after breakfast, Mom and I went to WalMart. I bought a Riverdale Digest comic book and ice cream. (The ice cream is for when my niece comes over on Saturday). Then, as we were leaving Walmart, some kind church people outside gave me a pretty cross and said: "Bless you." It was sort of weird but it was very nice of them. It was just a reminder that there's still good in the world.

Later that evening, I ate Taco Bell then drank a Caramel Macchiato from McDonald's, while I listened to my ipod. Then, I watched Shane's latest video for the week. It was a relaxing, content Friday.

Smooches and think Tink! 💋