Sunday, October 30, 2022

Forever Thirteen (my 2022 Halloween story) 🎃




Forever Thirteen

Wendy Lacing was a bubbly, compassionate, and sometimes overly excited thirteen-year-old girl that had an infectious zest for life. She had big brown eyes, a cover-girl smile, and long, jet-black hair that she wore down or up in a messy bun. She lived in Salem, Massachusetts with her parents. She loved every shade of purple and collecting anything Mickey Mouse. She also loved hanging out with her friends, dancing in competitions, and blaring music in her bedroom. She was into all kinds of music but she was especially obsessed with the boy band Harmonicz 5. The group consisted of Jack Timbers, Chris Valentine, Scott Edwards, Billy "B.D." Dickinson, and Peter Thackery.

Dozens of Harmonicz 5 posters were collaged together, taking over the walls and ceiling of her room. Also, all of her bedding and curtains had their faces on them. She bought every song that they ever made (even the songs they made before they were famous) and learned every word. She also knew everything about the guys.  

Jack, her favorite, was the sweet, kind. and extremely charming heartthrob. He had platinum blonde hair, baby blue eyes, an athletic-built body, and a tantalizing smile that would make any teenager, including Wendy, swoon. His singing voice was smooth as butter and he was the youngest of the group, being only sixteen. He also legitimately cared about his fans and valued what they had to say.  In Wendy's diary that her friends later found, she wrote that he was definitely husband material.

Chris Valentine, Wendy's second favorite, was the hyper, goofy, and loud jokester of the group. He was the oldest, being twenty-four. He had originally formed the group in St. Louis and arranged the vocal harmonies. He had light brown eyes, a mischievous and alluring grin, and a warped sense of humor. His hair was naturally brown but he dyed it in highlighter marker colors and at the time, it was neon green. He was always playing silly pranks on the guys of the group and cracking random jokes during interviews. He also loved surprising fans and intentionally showing up at places where Harmonicz 5 fans hung out. He appreciated their fans and just wanted to show the fans the same love that they had shown the group. He even attended a surprise birthday party for a fan. Wendy hoped that he would surprise her someday. 

Nineteen-year-old Scott was the shy, humble, and soft-spoken one. His eyes were gray, his hair was blonde, and he had such an adorable chuckle. Even though he was bashful, something awakened within him when he was in front of a camera or a cheering crowd. He became bolder and suddenly got great charisma. He thrived on giving the fans an excellent show and making them happy. Wendy loved watching him perform and come out of his shell.

Eighteen-year-old B.D. was the serious, creative, and poetic one. He had hazel eyes, black hair that had a buzzcut fade hairstyle, diamond studs in his ears, and a spellbinding singing voice. He could sing anything: from pop to classical opera. He wrote the songs for the group and sketched anything that he saw. He would then give the pictures that drew to fans who attended their meet-and-greets. Wendy always wanted one of those pictures from him. He was also the only black guy in the group but he never wanted to make it a big deal like how the media made it. To him and the other guys, they were brothers just with different complexions. 

Last but not least, there was twenty-one-year-old Peter. He was the hard-partying, rebellious, and kick-ass bad boy. He had fiery red hair, bright emerald eyes, a flirty and enticing grin, and tattoos down his muscular arms and down his washboard abs. He was often seen on stage with his shirt off or unbuttoned. TMZ and other gossip media loved him for his hardcore partying and serial dating. He was always causing drunken chaos in the clubs and he had a revolving door of famous girlfriends but he never got arrested and never needed to go to rehab. He had a soft side too; he never wanted to let down the other guys or the fans. He never partied or drank a drop of alcohol before a recording session or a live show. He gave his absolute best to the fans. Fans couldn't resist his rebel-without-a-cause vibe though. All of those girls with chronic bad boy syndrome were under his spell. Wendy never admitted it out loud but she wrote in her diary that she thought that he was so hot. 

They all could sing and dance incredibly. Wendy thought that they were truly talented and in her young mind, she would be a Harmonicz 5 fan for life but what she didn't know was that her life was a ticking time bomb. She only had the symptoms for a couple of weeks. She was constantly on the tired side but she just thought that it was from staying up late and watching Harmonicz 5 videos on her phone, instead of sleeping. Her legs would swell at times but she thought that it was just from overworking them in dance class. She would become short of breath and her chest would hurt sometimes but she would blame that on allergies. She didn't know why her heart would race, even when she was relaxing, but she never said anything to her parents. 

Some people outside of the Harmonicz 5 fandom have tried to blame her over the years for what happened, saying that she should've told her parents what was going on with her. It's true, she should've been honest about her health but she expected going to a concert with her older cousins would be safe. She expected if she was in distress at a crowded concert, someone would genuinely try to help her. She didn't ask for her fate to be in the hands of a greedy and heartless band manager and his two henchmen. 

It was October and brisk autumn winds rattled the colorful leaves. It was the time of pumpkin spice, apple cider, and stories of lurking ghosts. Recording artists rarely released whole albums about the Halloween season because as far as holidays go, Christmas albums were more marketable but that would soon change. Harmonicz 5 did something that other boy bands have never done before. They released two albums at once on the same day: a Halloween album called The Freaks Sure Do Come Out At Night and a Christmas album called Beautiful Under My Tree. The Halloween album went to number one and the Christmas album went to number two on the charts.

Wendy of course bought both and played the songs at full volume daily, driving her parents crazy. On the Halloween album, there were a couple of covers of classic Halloween songs like "Monster Mash" but most of the album had original songs, including an up-tempo love song called: "If My Heart Stops." This was Wendy's new favorite song and she played it over and over.

"You're my precious angel from above. 

I'm your reckless spirit,  

fighting for our love. 

Baby, I promise, 

nothing or no one will ever come between us. 

I'll be loving you,

even if my heart stops. 


I don't care if people say I'm too young to talk about forever; 

You're the Bella to my Edward.

I have no doubt that we belong together. 

Oh baby, I promise, 

nothing or no one will ever come between us. 

I'll be loving you,

even if my heart stops." 

To celebrate the album releases, the guys of Harmonicz 5 were going to go on a Halloween tour to select cities, and Salem, Massachusetts was going to be the first stop on October eighth. When Jack announced this on his Instagram, Wendy squealed so loud that she nearly broke all of the windows in the house. She tossed her phone on her bed and excitedly ran downstairs. She was ready to beg her parents for them to let her go but they already knew somehow. Her dad was already on the phone, buying the tickets. Her mom was just smiling at her. Her parents thought their music was so annoying but this group made her glow with such joy. How could they deny her a chance of seeing them live? They thought: "Besides, she's only young once."

"Oh thank you, Mommy and Daddy!" She hopped up and down ecstatically, on the verge of happy tears. 

On the eighth, her dad drove her and two older cousins to the concert at  Blackhart Stadium. Wendy wasn't tired that evening. She felt euphoric. She was wearing her favorite purple Harmonicz 5 t-shirt, her favorite silver Mickey Mouse necklace, a pair of blue jeans that had a Harmonicz 5 patch stitched into the pocket on the right side, and a purple ribbon in her braided hair. She was holding a sign that she made with markers and Jack Timbers stickers. It said: I LOVE JACK FOREVER! 

Since neither of her parents wanted to go to a concert with screaming girls, they asked her two cousins, Ginger and Lexi, to go with her. Being twins, they were both seventeen. They both had black hair and eyes. They also wore dark-colored tees, checkered mini skirts, fishnet stockings, and combat boots. They disliked pop, especially boy bands. Punk rock was more their jam but they wanted to make their cousin happy that night. They also heard that Peter Thackery was sexy as hell. They even bought Harmonicz 5 shirts for the night. 

Wendy's dad had let her play Harmonicz 5 songs the whole ride there. It was like torture for him but seeing her smiling face was worth it. She was singing loudly and bouncing in her seat, almost shaking. 

"Calm down," said Lexi with a chuckle. 

"I can't," exclaimed Wendy happily, "I'm so excited that I could die!" 

When the girls got out of the car and made their way inside, Ginger randomly said: "Blackhart is a cool name for a stadium." 

"It's owned by and named after Lewis Blackhart," Wendy told her, "Harmonicz 5's manager." 

Every fan knew the story: Lewis Blackhart was the pudgy billionaire with slicked-back salt-and-pepper hair who saw the guys in a talent show in St. Louis and was blown away by their voices. Because of his money and power, the guys got a record deal within weeks. Lewis put the guys on the fast track to fame, which they were grateful for. 

What fans didn't know was that the man was sleazy, shady, ruthless, and downright money-hungry, being involved in questionable side ventures like hostile takeovers of small-town businesses, buying buildings and not taking care of them properly, and bleeding other singers dry if they weren't successful. Chris then got the gut feeling that they shouldn't fully trust him so the guys hired a high-profile entertainment attorney just in case Lewis tried to pull something, which scared him into continuing on managing them fairly. Lewis would pretend to be their father figure but the guys knew better. 

Wendy and her cousins walked to their seats in the back row. As they were climbing the steps, she saw the jubilant faces of teenage girls and boys, parents who didn't want to be there but were smiling at their children's happiness, homemade signs like hers, and posters from teen magazines. People were already screaming even though no one was on stage yet. The atmosphere was electric. Her heart was pounding and she was slightly out of breath but she ignored it. When they were finally at their seats, she let out a cheer. 

Backstage, the guys were getting ready and warming up their vocals. Lewis was whispering orders to Jeffrey and Jasper, his assistants and younger brothers. They were husky men with dark brown hair and black eyes that always wore grimy baseball caps backward and ill-fitting shirts and jeans. Even though they were in their thirties, they still acted like blockheaded frat-boy rejects. They annoyed him but they were easy to manipulate.

"Don't let security make a scene about a girl fainting," he told them, "if she has a pulse, she's fine. Tell them if they don't leave the girl there, they'll be fired. I don't want another lawsuit or for the show to be stopped for any reason!" 

"Gotcha Bro," said Jeffrey. 

"We'll make sure that they listen," added Jasper. They then obediently walked away to intimidate the security guards and go to the bathroom. 

The opening act just left the stage by then and the lights came back on. Then, after what seemed like forever, the lights went down again and the stage was illuminated with dozens of glowing jack-o'-lanterns. The crowd knew who was coming and they erupted into earsplitting, enthusiastic screams and acclimation. Wendy was now screaming uncontrollably too and her cousins were wincing. 

The crowd then heard Peter's loud, wicked-sounding laughter, which was the intro to Harmonicz 5's song: "Come Join Our Creepshow." In harnesses, the guys slowly descended from the ceiling and onto the stage. They had their headset microphones on. They were wearing orange Gothic trench coats over black Victorian shirts with frills on the sleeves, black dress pants, black Gothic boots, black top hats, and leather gloves. They also had cobwebs on the top of their hats and shoulders. 

"Salem," yelled Peter in a sing-song voice, hyping up the crowd, "scream if you're ready to get creepy with us tonight!" 

Along with the shrill screams of the crowd, Wendy screeched: "Yeah!" 

Jack shouted: "Let's do this!" They then unbuckled their harnesses and started to perform "Come Join Our Creepshow." 

She got caught up in this captivating moment. In her teenage imagination, time seemed to stop, watching them effortlessly sing and dance. She was in the same space as the boys that she had been idolizing for a year.  Holding up her sign for Jack above her head, she screamed and sang at the top of her lungs with tears of joy streaming down her cheeks. On the jumbotron, she saw Jack smile as he was dancing. She thought that he was about to look her way, which was impossible for her to know. She became hysterical though, her heart beating at turbo speed. Then, time sped up. It felt like a dream. Suddenly, this pure joy turned into panic and agony, for there was an excruciating pain in her chest. She couldn't yell out for help. She couldn't even take a breath. She thought that she was passing out but in reality, her heart had stopped and she was dead before she even hit the floor. 

One second, Ginger and Lexi were watching Wendy freak out and holding back their laughter. The next, she was collapsing on top of her sign. 

"Wendy!" 

They frantically ran to her and lifted her onto the seats. Lexi laid Wendy's head in her lap. They just thought that she was unconscious but why were her eyes open so wide? 

Ginger desperately tried to find a pulse on her but couldn't feel one. In the shine of her cellphone flashlight, she also saw that Wendy's chest wasn't moving. 

"I can't find a pulse," Ginger said tearfully, "and I don't think she's breathing!" 

"What?! Do CPR!"

Jeffrey and Jasper saw the girl collapse and the two other girls coming to her aide. They didn't want them to draw any attention so they walked over to the girls. 

"We're security," lied Jeffrey, yelling over the music and screaming, "do you young ladies need some assistance? Did your friend faint?" 

"This is our cousin Wendy," said Lexi shakily. 

"She's...," cried Ginger, trying to do CPR, "I can't feel a pulse and she isn't breathing. I think that we should call 911, I have my cellphone!" 

"Let's just see before we do that." Jeffrey calmly checked for a pulse on Wendy. 

He of course didn't find one and fearfully glanced over at Jasper. 

He lied again, saying: "She has a pulse and she's breathing."

"But I just checked," exclaimed Ginger, "and look at her, she isn't moving!" 

"Maybe the CPR helped," he told her.  

When the girls weren't paying attention, he mouthed to Jasper: "She's dead. Go...get...Lewis...now!" 

Jasper ran out of the door and headed towards backstage. 

Lexi screamed: "Where is he going?" 

"He's getting help." 

"Please hurry!" 

"We will, we will." 

Wendy had no idea that she just died. She didn't notice that she was closer to the jumbotron than before. She thought that she only had a brief and strange moment of chest pain and assumed that she almost passed out but she somehow managed to steady herself without her cousins even seeing. She continued to scream, sing, and dance. It wasn't until she turned around to look at her cousins that she realized that she was levitating a few feet above her body. 

"Did I pass out after all," she thought maniacally, "and I'm having some weird out-of-body experience? How can I get back into my body? Wait, something is wrong!" 

She floated down closer to her body. Ginger was sobbing hysterically while Lexi was hugging Wendy's body, begging her to just wake up. Jeffrey, who Wendy recognized right away as one of Lewis Blackhart's brothers, was standing in front of them; blocking the other concert attendees from seeing her or her cousins. He was also trying to comfort her cousins but they were inconsolable. Her body was too still, her open eyes were too empty, and her lips had a frightening bluish hue. Then, the truth hit her like a sucker punch to the gut. 

"I'm dead!" 

Not only was she in shock and very terrified, she was also devastated. She never got to say goodbye to her family or friends. She wouldn't get to refill all of the dreams that she had for her future. The only small comfort that she had was that she died while watching her favorite boy band. She watched them adoringly and gratefully for a second as they perform her favorite song but this whole situation was still too surreal and gut-wrenching. Weeping, she let out a dispirited yell but the thunderous concert muted her wail. 

"So since I'm going to be thirteen forever," she sobbed, "where is this bright white light that people talk about when they talk about death?  Am I going to Heaven or Hell, or am I just in purgatory?"  

She tried talking to Ginger and Lexi, saying: "I love you both. This isn't your fault! Tell my mom and dad that I..." 

She then remembered: most people couldn't see or hear ghosts. She had read enough ghost stories to know. 

Over the booming music, she could hear Jeffrey telling her cousins that everything was okay and that she was just unconscious. Even though she knew that he couldn't hear her, she shouted: "That's not true! Why are you lying to them?!"

Meanwhile, Jasper darted backstage and found Lewis. 

"We have a big problem, Bro," he nervously told him. 

"Did a security guard help a fainting girl?" 

"I think that this is worse than fainting, Bro. A girl is dead!" 

"What, are you positive?" 

"Jeffrey checked for a pulse," he replied quickly, "and couldn't feel one." 

Lewis wasn't panicking or worrying about an innocent, young girl's life. He was exasperated that he had to clean another mess. He didn't want the concert to be stopped. People would've demanded for refunds.    

He asked with a sigh: "Did someone come with this girl to the concert?" 

"Her two cousins." 

"Teenagers?" 

"Yeah." 

"Good, take me to them." Then, he grabbed a black laptop bag and a red coat while he made two calls on his cellphone: a private ambulance service and a gravedigger that he knew at the Old Burial Hill Cemetery. He also ordered the stadium employees to break all of the security cameras.

The moment that Lewis saw the two Goth girls, he knew that they weren't Harmonicz 5 fans and wouldn't know who he was. The now-dead girl was the fan. He thought that his vile plan was going to work. When he and Jasper walked up to her cousins, Wendy thought that they finally called the authorities. Because Lewis always seemed like a nice manager to the guys, she expected him to be compassionate and to tell her cousins the truth. He came to her body and checked for a pulse himself. 

"She's out cold," he said kindly, shouting over the sound of the concert, "but she'll be fine. We've called 911!" 

Wendy exclaimed angrily, standing behind him: "Why are you lying too?! It's obvious that I'm dead!!" 

He asked: "Will you girls follow us?" 

Ginger and Lexi hesitated for a second but nodded their heads yes. When Jeffrey put on gloves and was about to pick up Wendy's body, Lexi fearfully exclaimed: "Wait, where are you taking us?" 

"Don't worry, we're here to keep you safe," lied Lewis, "We are head of security. I'm Albert and these two men are James and Ed. We're taking you to a room where the paramedics can get to your cousin faster." 

Getting in his face, Wendy screamed: "WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT WHO YOU ARE?!" 

"Okay," said Lexi, her voice now hoarse, "just help her!" 

Jeffrey then carefully scooped Wendy's body in his huge arms, holding her in a craddling position. As they walked out of the loud concert, Lewis covered up her body with a red coat. 

Seeing this, Ginger gasped: "What are you doing?!" 

"So people won't take pictures and embarrass her." 

Loudly banging on the walls of the hallways, Wendy yelled: "Stop lying, stop lying, stop lying!!!" They heard the bangs but they thought that it was just the pyrotechnics from the concert. They continued to walk to a tiny, gray room in the back of the stadium and Wendy followed close behind. She had a nagging feeling that something was up. The lying really bothered her. Jeffrey laid her body on a cot and Ginger pulled off the coat. 

Once they were all in the room, Lewis said: "Will you young ladies excuse me? I need to go to the restroom but these gentlemen will stay with you while you wait for the paramedics. I'll be right back." 

"Thank you," said Lexi. 

Wendy was too focused on her cousins to notice the malicious grin on his face as he shut the door. 

After he closed the door, he grabbed two bottles of water from the concession stand and went to the men's room. When he saw that no one else was in there with him, he then opened the two drinks of water and pulled out a bubble package of Rohypnol from his laptop bag. He quickly crushed some tablets on the sink and sprinkled the drug into the waters, re-capping the bottles. 

When he came back into the room, Wendy saw his evil smile this time. 

"I got you girls some water," he grinned, "We don't want you two to get dehydrated and pass out too."     

From the look on his face and the way that he was lying left and right, Wendy thought that there was something in the water. When he tried to give the bottled waters to Ginger and Lexi, she smacked both of the waters out of his hands. 

"I have such butter fingers," he chuckled, picking them up, "sorry." 

Wendy tried to knock the waters out of his hands again but her cousins grabbed them so fast. They were extremely thirsty because they've been crying so much. Wendy then tried to whack the waters out of their hands but before she could, they hastily uncapped the bottles and gulped down the water. It had an odd after-taste but they ignored it. 

"Please don't drink that!" 

She grabbed her cellphone that was in her back pocket and tried to dial 911 but the call of course wasn't going through because she was a ghost. 

"Crap!"  

She watched her cousins closely for five minutes but nothing happened. She thought that maybe she was being paranoid until twenty minutes later. Lexi was going to call their parents on her cellphone but she became dizzy.

"I feel weird," she said 

"Me too," replied Ginger. 

They felt like the room was spinning slowly like a sluggish but tortuous merry-go-round. Their vision became blurry and it seemed like they were looking underwater. The men were talking to them but their voices sounded like they were far away and on slow-mo.

Ginger and Lexi tried to stand up but staggered. 

"Oh my God," cried Wendy, "Lewis did drug you!" 

Lexi held onto Ginger as they both collapsed onto the floor. Their eyes were open but Wendy could see that they were still breathing and their souls were still in their bodies. She wondered if they could see her in their drugged state because their gazes lingered her way. 

"This isn't your fault," she told them tearfully, "I don't why I died but I'll figure it out and I don't blame you. I'm so sorry that I couldn't keep you two safe. I love you both." 

"That was fast," laughed Jeffrey. 

"Rohypnol always does the trick," Lewis replied happily, putting the bubble package in his laptop bag. 

Fury exploding out of her, Wendy charged at him and punched his throat with all of her might. He began to violently cough, wheeze, and gag for a few minutes.

"Go ahead and choke," she smiled. 

Jasper asked in alarm: "Are you alright, Bro?!" 

"I'm fine," he gasped, "Just carry the two girls out of the back door. The ambulances are probably here. Then, we'll take care of the dead girl. Remember to tell the paramedics that you found these girls high in the bathroom." 

"YOU BASTARD," screamed Wendy. 

Jeffrey and Jasper then carried Ginger and Lexi out to the ambulances. Wendy followed them to make sure that her cousins were going to get some help. The paramedics were legitimately concerned about her cousins when they saw them so she decided not to follow the ambulances. They were safe and she needed to know what the men were going to do with her body anyway.

Moments after the ambulances left, Lewis pulled up in his Mercedes-Benz jeep. Jeffrey thoughtlessly tossed Wendy's dead body in the back of the jeep like it was trash. 

"Hey," she exclaimed, standing behind him "jerk! Go to Hell!" 

They took a fifteen-minute drive to Old Burial Hill Cemetery. On the drive there, she kept switching from anger to sadness, crying helplessly. She wished that she could hug her family and never let go. She wished that she was back in her room, blasting Harmonicz 5 music, or back at the concert, having the time of her life. She just longed for all of this to be a nightmare. 

Lewis drove through the opened gate of the cemetery and the labyrinth of graves. He parked at a dead, deformed tree. The tree had a massive oval hole in its trunk and the trunk looked like it had a face with a petrified scream. Next to the tree, there was a freshly dug hole in the ground, and in that hole, there was an empty, wooden coffin. 

"I so hate this," she said. 

"Everything is set," said the gravedigger to Lewis, "and the groundskeeper won't say anything. He already got your payment." 

"Good." 

"Traitor," she yelled. 

The gravedigger then just walked away silently, for he knew what they doing was wrong.

Jasper dropped her body next to the hole for a minute. You could call what occurred next a temporary miracle or October spirits desperately trying to bring Wendy back to her normal life but something extraordinary happened. When Jeffrey walked by to get something out of the jeep, he accidentally stomped on her chest. This jolt made her heart start again and she returned to her body with a loud gasp but she remained unconscious.

Both Jeffrey and Jasper screamed like scared, little children. 

Jeffrey timidly asked: "So should we take her to the hospital?" 

Lewis checked her pulse and simply said: "No." 

Jasper exclaimed: "We're really burying her alive?" 

"Yes, her pulse is very weak. She wouldn't even make it to the hospital if we did. I bet that she only lives a few minutes." 

This wasn't true of course. Her pulse was strong enough. She would've survived if they only took her to a hospital but Lewis was so bone-chillingly uncaring that he just wanted to get rid of her, dead or alive. They pushed Wendy into the coffin on her back, while he took the SIM card out of his phone and smashed it with a rock. He then threw his phone into the coffin with her. 

"Don't you need that, Bro?" 

"No, I have another one. Same number." 

Just before they closed the lid, a rabid, gaunt-looking rat with its mouth foaming hopped into the coffin. Jeffrey and Jasper screamed again, jumped back, and quickly shut it.

"Will you two stop screaming?!" 

"A rat jumped in there," said Jeffrey, "it looks sick!" 

"Well, that girl will be its last meal," snickered Lewis, "Now, fill the hole! I need to get back to the concert." 

Wendy woke up an hour later to a burning, agonizing pain in her shins, which made her cry out and twitch repeatedly. She knew that she was in a coffin and her eyes darted all over, searching for an escape. She tried to reach for her cellphone to get help but couldn't grab it. When she looked down at the extreme shin pain, she screamed in utter horror. The crazed rat that was foaming at the mouth was on her legs, scratching and gnawing at her shins, biting into the jean cloth and her flesh. She tried to kick it away but this only irritated the rat and it bit harder. Bleeding profusely, her shins' flesh was being eaten and bones were half visible. She screamed for help over and over and frantically clawed at the coffin lid, trying to open it, until there was blood underneath her fingernails. 

The diseased rat then ran up to her face and bit deeply into her right cheek, tearing her flesh away with its teeth like it was biting into melted cheese. She tried to hit the rat away from her face but it was attacking her feverishly and kept on biting. All that she could do was shriek in pain and terror. All that she could now see was blood while the right of her face was being completely mutilated. She was hyperventilating, inhaling dirt and her own blood and mucus until her heart finally stopped for good.   

She slowly floated out of the coffin and now stood next to her unmarked grave. Looking down with fright, she saw that her jeans below the knees were in shreds and her lower legs were skeletal. Her fingernails were broken and bloody. She then put her hand to face and she felt the right side of her face was also skeletal from her temple to her chin. 

She sobbed, sitting on the ground: "I'm hideous!" She was crying blood tears, which freaked her out. All of a sudden, her right eye fell out of her head and she caught it in her hand. Holding it, it felt like a small ball that was covered in Jell-O. This grossed her out as well but without thinking, she leaned backward and tossed it back into her head. 

"Ew, did I just do that?"

Then, the ghost of the rat raised from the grave too, and landed next to her. 

"YOU DID THIS TO ME!" She was about to beat the rat when she saw that it was shaking and cowering submissively by her foot. She then remembered how the rat was foaming at the mouth while it was attacking her. She suddenly felt sorry for the creature and told herself that her looks didn't matter anymore since she was a ghost now.

"You poor thing," she said softly, "you had rabies, didn't you? You didn't mean to hurt me. Rabies made you crazy. You're not an evil monster like Lewis Blackhart." 

She was now petting the rat affectionately and it snuggled against her. "I forgive you," she continued, feeling better, "cause we both drew the short end of the stick. You should be my sidekick." 

To her shock, the rat nodded in agreement. 

"Wait, can you understand  me?" 

The rat nodded again. 

"Death is so bizarre," she chuckled, "Well, do you want a name?" 

The rat squeaked excitedly. 

"How about Chewer? It'll be our own twisted private joke." She giggled and Chewer squeaked in a laughing way. 

Just then, Harmonicz 5's tour bus was stopped at a red light across the street. Wendy knew that it was their bus because of the large, blue H5 banner painted on the side. 

"Come on," she told Chewer, "I'll show you one of the greatest boy bands ever!" 

Wendy and Chewer walked through the closed cemetery gate, glided across the street, and walked into the closed tour bus door. She quietly watched the guys for a second. Even though they couldn't see her, she became star-struck. 

"This is Jack, Chris, B.D., Scott, and Peter," she gushed to Chewer, "Harmonicz 5. They're so talented and cute! Aren't they just to die for?"

The rat squeaked in confusion.

"Oh, no pun intended."  

All five guys were laughing and talking animatedly, still feeling the excitement from their show. 

"The crowd was freaking amazing tonight," exclaimed Peter. 

"Yeah," replied Chris, "it blows my mind that fans know every word of our    Halloween album already! We released it on the first. It's like we're leaders of a cult and our songs are scripture or something. It's sort of creepy but cool!"  

Everyone rolled their eyes but chuckled at his silly cult comment.

"I'm just hyped that everyone loves If My Heart Stops," said Jack excitedly, "the first song that I ever co-wrote!" 

"I told you that they would, Man," said B.D. 

"But you're good at anything," Scott told Jack with a smile, "let's just face it."      

Wendy smiled warmly, listening to them talk. Just being near them almost made her forget the horrific things that happened that night. They were her security blanket, even in death. She knew right then that she was going to haunt them just to watch and be around them. Lewis left the guys in the dark about what happened in Salem. When her disappearance was being reported on the news, he quickly turned off the television. Their PR team posted on their social media because they were busy with the tour and Lewis also banned police from asking the guys about her disappearance. Wendy wanted her family to know what happened to her and she loathed Lewis but she just wanted to stay with the guys and didn't really want to face it.  

They went to New Hampshire, Maine, New York, St. Louis, and back to Salem for a Halloween surprise concert. During the tour, Wendy explored the cities and watched the guys perform nightly. She and Chewer would dance right above the stage or on stage with the guys. She thought that this could be her heaven. She couldn't avoid seeing Lewis though so she got her revenge through ghostly high jinks. 

When Jeffrey made a kale smoothie for Lewis, Wendy put the spiciest hot sauce that she could find into it. His mouth felt like an inferno and he screamed bloody murder until someone got him a glass of milk. Every time he made Jasper get him bottled water, she made sure that he grabbed the bottle that she poured Magnesium citrate in. He was pooping for most of the tour. Her revenge didn't stop at night either. When Lewis was asleep, Chewer bit up and down his arms, and with her bloody, sharp, cracked fingernails, Wendy scratched the word Killer into his chest. Because he used sleeping pills, he never woke during this. He woke up in complete agony and fear, in his own blood. He hid his wounds from everyone. He thought that someone was after him but didn't know who, which made him increasingly paranoid. 

On Halloween night, two unruly teenagers named Andy and Johnny. The two red-headed brats had sneaked into Old Burial Hill Cemetery. Kids from Salem loved to hang out there on Halloween because the graveyard scenes from the movie Hocus Pocus were filmed there but these two teens were up to no good. They brought shovels. Even though it was disrespectful and illegal to dig up a grave, someone dared them to steal a dead body and they stupidly accepted. They walked towards the deformed tree and saw Wendy's grave. There was no tombstone but they somehow knew that it was a grave. 

They began to dig gleefully and it took an hour. When they reached the bottom, they were tired and sweaty. Andy just wanted to get the body and get out. He swiftly opened the wooden coffin without a thought. Seeing the grotesque state of her body and human crawl marks on the lid, Andy puked and Johnny screeched and fainted. Andy then had to run and get help for his friend. 

The guys of Harmonicz 5 just left the stadium. Wendy and Chewer were watching them drink non-alcoholic sparkling apple cider, wishing each other a happy Halloween when she heard police sirens. She looked out of the window and saw that they were driving by Old Burial Hill Cemetery. Police surrounded their grave. Since she knew what hotel the guys were staying at, she said: "Come on Chewer, let's see what's going on at our grave." 

They flew out of the tour bus and across the street to the cemetery, landing next to the grave. She saw that the coffin was open but she couldn't bring herself to look at her own body, for she knew how gruesome it probably looked. There was yellow crime tape around the area. Police officers and investigators were taking pictures of her body and the coffin. 

"I've seen her missing posters everywhere," said an officer to another, "Who would do this to such an innocent girl?" 

"A sicko. I just hope that this won't destroy her parents completely." 

Hearing the officer mention her parents made her tear up. She hadn't visited them because it was painful to see them and not able to talk to them. She doubted her mom would keep an ouija board in the house. She would give anything for them to hold her again though.

Then, from the corner of her eye, she saw that her body was now in a blue bag on a stretcher and being put in a black ambulance. 

Wiping the blood tears away from her eyes, she said: "They're taking it to the coroner for an autopsy. We have to follow. I have to know why I died the first time!"

Chewer nodded. 

The autopsy room was freezing cold and extremely sanitary smelling with white fluorescent light. The room wasn't exactly welcoming but the medical examiner, Dr. Allen, was very kind and warm. She called herself a death advocate; she was the voice for the people who couldn't talk anymore. She talked to Wendy's body as if it was still alive, saying what she was doing during the autopsy.  It was eccentric but Wendy appreciated it so much. 

Wendy didn't understand all of the medical terms but she got the whole story. She had two cardiac arrests due to a weak heart. It was rare for a young and healthy teenager to have this but it's possible. The first cardiac arrest was triggered by the excitement of the concert. 

"I can live with that." 

Chewer looked at her with a raised eyebrow. 

"Pun intended." 

There was no medical reason why she came back to life. A foot on a chest reviving a person after an hour of being dead was medically impossible but there was evidence that this is what happened. The second cardiac arrest was of course in the coffin. There was dirt in her lungs. She was buried alive so it was obviously murder.

When she heard what she wanted to hear, they walked out. They were about to leave when she saw her mom and dad walking towards the room. They were crying and praying quietly. Without thinking, she ran and embraced them tightly, sobbing. They didn't know why they couldn't move suddenly but they let it happen for a moment. To them, it felt like the warmest weighted blanket was wrapped around them. It was a comfort during a terrible situation. 

"Mom...Dad, I miss you so much! I know that you can't hear or see me but I'm here! You were the best parents that any girl could have. Please don't blame yourselves. I've had a happy life with you both. I love you both so much!"

Things fell into place after that night. The next day, Lewis was arrested for trying to murder a stadium employee and his arrest was on the news. As Ginger and Lexi were watching the newscast, memories of that night abruptly flashed in their minds, and exclaimed: "That's the guy who drugged us!" 

While all of their memories about that night eventually came back, investigators immediately connected him to their drugging and Wendy's death. Being fearful of whoever was after him (who was really the ghost of Wendy), he pleaded guilty to everything. Then, Jeffrey, Jasper, the gravedigger, and the groundskeeper were also arrested. The guys of Harmonicz 5 were so heartbroken when they finally heard what happened. They asked Wendy's parents if they could pay for the funeral and sing at the service in memory of Wendy. This made her love them even more. Her parents of course said yes, for they knew that these guys meant so much to her. 

The next month, it was strange to watch her own funeral with Chewer curled up on her lap. It was difficult to observe family and friends mourn for her, wanting to comfort them but she couldn't. The casket was closed for obvious reasons but it was beautifully golden. Family and friends shared all kinds of memories about her. Even though she was uncomfortable, she laughed and cried at all of those awesome memories. It felt good to be so loved. Then, the guys stood up to sing.

"Wendy sounded like such a special girl," said Jack with a lump in his throat, "loving and adventurous. We heard that this was her favorite song so we're going to sing it in a special way. We didn't rehearse it. We wanted it to be raw and from the heart. Wendy, we love you, girl." 

"Yes," added Chris, "you might be our number one fan but we'll always be yours, Wendy." 

They started singing a melancholy, slow, but gorgeous a cappella version of "If My Heart Stops." She was moved to tears. Despite all of the fear, evil, and loss that happened, she got this precious moment at the end. They never met face to face but they knew that she existed and that was enough for her. 

Wendy became an urban legend, a modern ghost story of the Harmonicz 5 fandom after the truth about her death came out in the media. Fans made her spirit the mascot of the boy band. Some believed that she crossed over after the funeral but most believed that her ghost continued to watch over the guys, being forever their fan: 

Forever thirteen.                 



©Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2022 

Happy Halloween 🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃 


              Smooches and think Tink! 

                            


Wednesday, October 5, 2022

The Defense Attorney Next Door: Part 2 - the Date (a SVU fanfic)


When I opened my door the next morning, Rafael was standing at my door, being dressed for work, with a cup of Starbucks coffee and my mail in his hands. 

"Good morning Rosette," he said with an alluring smile. After giving me my mail and my surprise, he stayed and talked to me for a few minutes before he had to go to work.    

He did this on Thursday morning too, giving me my mail and a gorgeous bouquet of yellow roses.

"Thank you, Rafael," I exclaimed happily, "You really don't have to do this!" 

"But I want to. Besides, it's a good start to my long day to see you smile." 

I never smiled so big before in my life. I also noticed throughout the week that he was starting to give me heart eyes but I tried not to overthink it and just enjoyed these moments. On Friday, he couldn't stop by because of work but when I opened my door, there was a heart-shaped box of chocolates and a handwritten note from him at my feet. The note simply read: See you tonight at 7. Sincerely, Rafael.  

I struggled with focusing on my work all that day. I was too excited and nervous to think about murderers, trials, or grammar. I was trying to proofread an article but my brain kept replaying memories of Rafael like a broken record. When I thought about his sexy smile and the welcoming way that he would say my name, the butterflies in my stomach fluttered and my mind got completely lost in sultry thoughts.

Rafael burst into my door, saying, "Rosette, I need you...now." He made me stand up from my desk, slamming me against the wall and kissing me so hard that I could barely breathe, but I kissed him back just as eagerly, combing my fingers through his hair. His soft lips were all over me now. He then grabbed my upper thigh, pulling my body closer to his. Biting my bottom lip, I trembled in anticipation and lust. He peeled his jacket off hurriedly behind him, still kissing me hungrily. Then... 

Then, a car alarm outside of my window woke me up from this enticing daydream. I now sat alone at my desk once again in front of my laptop with a yellow highlighter behind my ear, a red ink pen in my hand, and papers from the first draft of an article scattered all over my desk. Sweat was running down my back and I gulped down a whole bottle of water. 

"Get it together," I scolded myself, "You're an adult, you have to work! What the hell was that anyway? You're not a heroine in a tacky romance novel."  

Finally, at five o'clock, I gave up on my work and ate a peanut butter and grape jelly sandwich. I then started to pick out my outfit for that evening. First, I tried on a long, black sweater dress with a black pair of leggings, brown lipstick, a pair of black boots, and a black knitted hat. I looked in the mirror and thought: "Too dark and bookish." 

Then, I tried on a purple, lacy blouse and a pair of blue jeans with a pair of brown, high-heel boots that were excruciating to walk in. 

"Too casual, painful, and WAY too desperate," I thought. 

As I took off the boots from Hell, I noticed something red and glittery in the back of my closet, shimmering in the waning daylight. I walked over to it. It was my red, sequined, sleeveless midi dress. I tried it on with a red, push-up bra to show off my cleavage and a pair of thigh-high, red stockings underneath the dress so I wouldn't be cold. I smiled at the mirror. I didn't know why but I just felt like I should wear this that night. 

Once I knew for sure that this was what I was going to wear, I quickly undressed, brushed my teeth, and took a shower. After I washed up and dried off, I put everything back on and began to finish the look. Leaving my hair down, I curled it, brushed it, and sprayed product in it so it would be wavy. I put on red, liquid lipstick, purple eyeshadow, black eyeliner and mascara, and a pair of metallic, galaxy purple pumps. 

I looked at my finished outfit in the mirror and thought with satisfaction and some amusement: "Jessica Rabbit chic. I love it." I then looked over at the clock and it was almost six. I figured that I should be going. I grabbed my purse, phone, and a mask. Putting on my black leather jacket, I checked the mirror one last time and headed out the door. 

 Anna's Coffee café had a dark academia but homey aesthetic. It had Victorian-Gothic tables and lamps, several booths that had soft, burgundy-colored seating, six velvety armchairs in cozy reading nooks with old-fashioned bookshelves that were filled with classic books, and there was an electric but antique-looking fireplace that was always on. The aroma of fresh-made pies, pastries, and coffee was also part of the relaxed atmosphere. 

Twenty-eight-year-old Petra Kirkpatrick, who I met in college, decorated the café in the dark academia aesthetic because she loved reading and the Victorian era but she also made the café welcoming to everyone in memory of her grandma, Anna, who passed away in 2019. Petra said that her grandma's door was always open to anyone. Her house was so fancy and relaxed, and no matter who came over, there would always be some coffee and pie. 

People told Petra that it was crazy to open a café during the pandemic but she didn't care. She wanted to preserve her grandma's memory somehow. She made it work, using her own money. She also asked Josh to work there since he didn't have a job due to the pandemic. They didn't have a lot of business at first but since the Covid restrictions have been relaxed recently, writers, avid readers, college students, and coffee addicts began to flock there daily. I was so proud of my friends. 

I arrived at the café at six-thirty for my date with Rafael. I knew that I was early but I was feeling too reckless to wait. When I walked in, they were behind the wooden, polished countertop, making orders. Josh saw me, took off his mask, hopped over the countertop, and exclaimed: "Rosette, I'm loving this look on you!" 

Twenty-nine-year-old Josh Pannington was a tall, muscular, approachable, excitable (overly excitable at times), black, gay man with blue eyes, a goatee, a handsome, picture-ready smile, an incredible singing voice, and dark hair that was up in a man bun most of the time. He was the type of guy that other gay men would gawk over and women would wish was straight. 

Ever since middle school back in Missouri, Josh and I were thick as thieves. We were the same age but he protected me like a big brother. During our senior year of high school, we decided to go to New York after graduation. He wanted to be an actor and I wanted to go to college for investigative journalism. Neither of our parents were thrilled about this decision but we couldn't be stopped, even when my so-called parents took away half of my college fund. I did graduate from college and Josh did constantly get acting roles on Broadway year after year until the pandemic hit. 

"Thanks," I beamed, "Someone is meeting me here for a date. Is my usual booth free?" 

"Of course," called out Petra happily. 

My usual booth was the first one next to the window. Light shined through it the most, there was more space to move, and it's where you could see the most scenery of the beautiful, busy city. Taking off my jacket, I sat in the booth and Josh slid next to me. 

He asked me: "So who is it?" 

"Oh, would you like to know," I teased. 

"Is it the weird psychologist?" 

"Um, hell no." 

"The Stephen King wannabe?" 

"No." 

"Hey, Mr. Chatterbox," said Petra, "I could use some help over here please!" 

"I will, I will," he replied with a grin, "once Rosette tells me who her mystery man is. She's obviously dressed to impress." 

"It's no one you met," I told him. 

"Please don't tell me that it's someone from your work," he whined.

"It's Rafael Barba," I finally blurted out. 

"Ohhh my God," Josh sang out, making everyone look at us for a second. 

"Shhh!" I was embarrassed but yet, fighting the urge to laugh out loud.

My answer even got Petra's attention. She dashed to the booth, taking her long, brown hair out of a ponytail, peeling off her mask, and her green eyes was inquisitive. 

She exclaimed: "That lawyer that you've been obsessed with forever?" 

"Not obsessed," I corrected, "just admired...from afar." 

Josh asked: "Who asked who out first?" 

"Well, do you remember on Tuesday night when I lost my key and...?" 

"Wait," he interrupted, "were you in his apartment while you were waiting for me?" 

"Yes." 

"Oh wow." 

"And after you found my key, he carried my bags to my door for me and I...asked him out." 

"Look at you," he cheered, "taking the initiative! I'm so proud, yeah baby!"   

"Thanks," I smiled, "I just took a leap of faith." 

Petra looked skeptical and asked: "But is he too old for you?" 

"Oh, don't be such an ageist," Josh told Petra, "It's not a Wilmer Valderrama situation! Rosette and Mr. Barba are both grown, consenting adults. Besides, the heart wants what the heart wants." 

"Okay, okay." 

"Hey," he then said excitedly, "I have an idea." 

"Oh no," Petra and I said in unison. 

He always tried to come up with a clever plan for me to impress my dates but it was always humiliating in some way. 

"Just hear me out: He speaks Spanish, right? 

"Right," I replied hesitantly, "Rafael is Cuban. Why?" 

"And you can still speak Spanish?"

"Yes. Again, why?" 

"I only know a few Spanish phrases," he continued, "but it's enough. When I come to take your orders, I can ask you what you want in Spanish and you can answer back in Spanish, so you can show how intelligent you are." 

"I don't know..." 

Petra said: "Come on Josh, we better get back to work. Some pies are in the oven and Mr. Barba is probably on his way." 

"Okay," Josh said, getting up from the booth, putting back on his mask, and winking at me, "but trust me Rosette, men like Mr. Barba go crazy for smart women." 

"I'll try to make Josh behave," she whispered, putting on her mask and standing up, "but you know the risks when you meet dates here." 

"I know," I replied, "but I'm less nervous when I meet someone if I'm here." 

Petra just smiled warmly and walked away. 

I checked my phone and it was 6:59 P.M. I reminded myself not to look so anxious. 

"Just breathe," I coaxed myself. 

I checked my phone again and it was 7:10 . 

"He's just a little late," I told myself, "no biggie." 

At 7:28, I thought with panic: "Did I send him the address?!" 

I looked through my phone and to my relief, I did send the address to his phone and he had read the text earlier that day. 

At 7:38, I erratically thought: "Maybe he forgot or he just ghosted me for a prettier woman! I'm probably just a neighbor to him. I was so desperate for him to..." 

I wanted to cry but I wouldn't let myself. It was silly to cry at this point. Sensing my sadness, Josh said: "He's probably stuck in traffic." 

"Yeah...maybe." 

Finally, at 7:43, he texted: So sorry. Court ran later than I expected. Stopping by my apartment to freshen up then I'll be on my way!              

"He's on his way," I said aloud happily without thinking, "Court just ran late!" 

"Good," Josh smiled.  

I texted back: No problem, I'll be here.  

I quickly touched up on my make-up and grabbed a book from a shelf so it looked like I was reading this whole time, not fretting and being on the verge of tears. I turned the third page, when I heard Josh go: "Daaammmnnn" underneath his breath. 

I looked up and turned around. I forgot to breathe for a second. Rafael stood there, holding a white rose; his beautiful, green eyes scanning for me. He just took off a mask and his long, gray coat. He was wearing a white shirt with two buttons unbuttoned that showed some chest hair, an opened, black vest over the shirt, black slacks, and a pair of black Gucci loafers. His salt-and-pepper hair was also slicked back. This wasn't his usual work attire; he dressed casually desirable for the date...for me. 

"Damn is right," I whispered to myself, smiling. 

I stood up from the booth and waved at him. "Rafael, over here!" 

When he saw me, he gave me a small, irresistible grin and said: "Rosette, you look absolutely stunning." 

"Thank you," I smiled, "you look..." 

"Heartbreakingly, breath-takingly, knee-buckling sexy," I thought. 

"...Incredibly handsome," I told him confidently. 

"Thank you," he said warmly, as he handed me the rose and we sat in the booth, facing each other, "Sorry about being late and not texting or calling you. Judges are real sticklers for not using phones in court and I was with my clients during recess." 

"It's okay." 

"But I feel foolish," he said flirtatiously, "for leaving such a gorgeous woman waiting." 

"Don't be silly," I giggled, "I was reading to pass the time." 

I knew that I was blushing but I didn't try to hide it this time. Then, I swiftly closed the book so he wouldn't see that I only read three pages. 

Curiosity getting the best of me, I then asked: "Who are your clients or is that secret?" 

"They're a group of disabled college students that formed a demonstration on campus, demanding that the school have more wheelchair accessibility. This protest was approved by the dean but the protest started during class hours. Some negative things were said about the college during the demonstration so the dean had them arrested for disturbing the peace and expelled them, which was a huge mistake, done out of spite."  

I asked sardonically: "Has that dean never heard of freedom of speech or inclusion?"  

"My thoughts exactly," he chuckled. 

I then saw Josh coming towards the booth. I wanted to hide under the table but I knew that I just had to endure the embarrassment.

"Hola," exclaimed Josh, "¿Puedo tomar su orden?" (Can I take your order?) 

I was so mortified but I hoped that if I played along, Rafael wouldn't give it a second thought. 

"Sí," I replied, as calmly as I could, "Me gustaría un moka de menta con leche de almendras y sirope extra de chocolate por favor." (I would like a peppermint mocha with almond milk and extra chocolate syrup please). 

Rafael grinned at me with astonishment and said: "Impressive." 

"I know, right," said Josh happily, "She's so smart!"   

"I thought that you only spoke Spanish," he said to Josh. 

"Oh, no but isn't Rosette amazing though? She speaks Spanish perfectly!" 

An explanation being needed, I said: "Rafael, this is my friend Josh Pannington. Josh, this is my neighbor Rafael Barba." 

"It's nice to meet you," said Josh. 

"Likewise." 

They shook hands.

Then, Josh exclaimed proudly: "Hey, did you know that Rosette taught herself Spanish when she was only thirteen?" 

"Really?" 

"Yep, she spent that whole summer in her room teaching herself." 

"Just because my mom grounded me that summer," I said, "due to my B- on my math final. I wanted to do something productive during my punishment and I've always wanted to learn another language." 

Rafael smiled at me and remarked: "Wow, not all kids at that age have the discipline to learn a new language on their own especially after being grounded for the summer for a stupid reason. Do you have strict, academic parents?"  

"Thanks," I said smilingly, "yeah, it's something like that." 

What I didn't say was that my parents tortured me mentally to be a straight-A student but we wouldn't be discussing that this night. I was with the man of my dreams!

"Josh," yelled Petra, "can you please just get their orders already?!" 

"Oh yeah," he said, "Rosette, can you repeat your order?" 

"Peppermint mocha with Almond milk and extra chocolate syrup." 

"Got it, and what do you want, Mr. Barba?" 

"Just a coffee with two sugars and cream." 

"Okay, brb." 

Once Josh walked away, I said: "Sorry about that. He's...talkative." 

"It's fine," Rafael assured me, "everyone needs a hype man like him once in a while. Besides, I learned something fascinating about you." 

He then asked me: "So what did you do today?" 

"Proofread an article," I replied. 

"Daydreamed about you like a damn teenager," I thought. 

"For work?" 

"Yes." 

"How did you get a job for an online magazine?" 

"Well, during college, I wrote about you and your sex crime cases on my personal blog when you were a prosecutor. An editor from Heinous Minds saw my blog and liked what he read, so after I graduated, I was offered a writing job." 

"I didn't know that prosecutors had fans," he said playfully. 

"They do," I grinned, "especially if they're like you." 

I thought that this flirty comment was cheesy as hell but I saw that I made him blush a little and my heart skipped a beat.

Josh came back with our coffees but Petra was behind him with two plates of pie in her hands. As Josh carefully handed over our mugs and walked away, she placed the plates in front of us. 

"Two slices of apple pie," she beamed, "on the house!" 

"Thanks Petra." 

"Anytime...and it's nice to meet you, Mr. Barba."  

"Oh, please call me Rafael." 

"Okay Rafael," she smiled, "Hey Rosette, I know that Josh went overboard but it is pretty cool that you taught yourself Spanish that young." 

"It's no big deal." 

"Your friends are obsessed with this fact about you," remarked Rafael. 

"I notice." 

"Well, I wouldn't be able to learn another language at that age," replied Petra, "and still remember it. Oh by the way, does your name mean little Dandelion in Spanish?" 

"The word Rose is literally in her name," teased Josh playfully from the counter, making both Rafael and I almost choke on coffee from laughter. 

"I think that it's French," I giggled, "meaning little flower or little rose." 

"Then why do your parents call you their little weed? I heard them call you that on phone messages."

Josh and I shot Petra a warning look, which she didn't notice.

I laughed nervously and said: "My parents just have a warped sense of humor. You see, my birth was unexpected and..." 

"And unwanted," I thought. 

"...and I was a scrawny and awkward kid," I went on, "that was never where my parents wanted me to be. As an adult, I can still be pretty awkward at times so I'm the weed of the family. Get it? Isn't it funny?" 

I was trying to laugh it off but inside, I was panicking. 

Josh immediately rushed over and came up with a lie: "Petra, I think that the cherry pie is burning. You better come quick!" 

"Oh crap! Will you two excuse me?" 

As they ran into the kitchen, Josh mouthed: Sorry.  

"She's very serious about her pies," I joked.

When I looked at Rafael, he was giving me a perplexing, heartfelt look. 

"I can't believe that your parents call you a weed," he said. 

"Oh, it's nothing. My parents just think..." 

"They're wrong," he said tenderly, "Eres una rara, hermosa, pequeña rosa." (You're a rare, gorgeous, little rose)

This was when he reached over and gently touched my hand for the first time, looking into my eyes.

I smiled, looking back into his eyes, and softly said: "That does sound much better." This simple, sweet moment meant so much to me.

We talked and laughed for an hour, as we drank coffee and ate pie. Not only was he very cultured, but he could also be hilariously cheeky. Even though I still had the butterflies in my stomach, my insecurities from earlier were gone. I was just enjoying his company. Our surroundings seemed to melt away and we were in our own little world. He was everything and more that I thought that he would be. 

At nine o'clock, we were ready to leave and he wanted to tip Josh and thank Petra personally. We were waiting at the counter when someone tapped his shoulder. It was Odafin Tutuola. I recognized him from all of the SVU cases that I wrote about. 

He took off his mask and said in a friendly tone: "What's up Barba?"

"Fin," Rafael exclaimed happily, "how are you?" 

"I'm good. I should've known that you'll be into a place like this." 

"Well," replied Rafael, "my captivating neighbor, Rosette Sawyer, here, invited me." 

His affectionate introduction of me took me by surprise but I played it cool. 

"Rosette, meet Sergeant Fin Tutuola." 

"It's nice to meet you Sergeant Tutuola," I said. 

"Just call me Fin," he smiled, "Nice to meet you." 

"I really respect what the Special Victims Unit does everyday," I told Fin, "I'm a true crime writer. I've had written a lot about the SVU cases that Rafael prosecuted."

"That's cool. Thanks." 

Rafael just grinned proudly at me.

"I'm shocked that you're even here," Rafael said to Fin, "I thought that you hated coffee." 

"I do but Phoebe bugged me to come." Fin then pointed to a woman, who was sitting in the second booth and was already giving her order to Josh. 

"Ah, smart man," remarked Rafael, "So how's Liv?" 

He was finally addressing the elephant in the room for them. 

"You know Liv," Fin replied, "constantly working. We've been busy with a case that I think that makes Carisi secretly wishes that you were still the D.A. Liv won't talk about it but man, she's still pissed at you for defending that ass-hat, Wheatley. Carisi just mentioned you and she didn't talk to him for a day." 

"Even ass-hats deserve a good defense." 

Rafael was trying to smirk it away but I saw the heart-wrenching darkness in his eyes for a second. They brightened up again spontaneously though after he glanced over at me, his gaze looking like a green sunrise. I wasn't jealous at the time either because I knew how long he worked with Olivia. She was a huge part of his life. 

"I get it," said Fin, "you were just doing your job and Carisi told us that you only took Wheatley's case to protect Liv." 

I exclaimed: "You did?" 

"Yeah, not all defense attorneys have the same integrity as Barba." 

"I wish that Liv saw it that way," Rafael sighed. 

"Just give her time," assured Fin. 

"Hey Fin," exclaimed Phoebe teasingly, "stop gossiping during their date and come sit down!" 

"I better get back," he smiled, "you two have a good night." 

"If you don't like coffee," I told Fin, "try one of the pies. They're tasty!" 

"I'll keep that in mind." 

Then, before walking away, he quickly winked at Rafael and playfully said: "Don't do anything that I wouldn't do." 

Rafael rolled his eyes but smiled. I giggled. 

Josh and Petra finally came to the counter. Rafael paid for our coffees and gave Josh thirty bucks. He then thanked Petra for a great experience. Josh and Petra both beamed with pride. He was already getting along with my friends, despite the awkwardness of the beginning of the date. I was so relieved and happy. 

As I was putting on my jacket and mask, Petra whispered to me: "I'm sorry about earlier. Josh told me everything. I didn't know that your parents were such jerks. I mean, I knew that they weren't exactly the Brady Bunch but..."     

"It's okay," I promised her, "I'm not mad. I never told you." 

"But..." 

"It's absolutely fine." I hugged her swiftly before Rafael and I walked out.

Rafael and I were walking home together and we walked in silence at first. People were still being cautious because of Covid but the city was becoming alive again with the bustling streets, which was nice to see.  Neon lights from signs radiated welcomingly in the night and the Christmas lights all around twinkled brightly like stars. There was also a slight chill in the air that I could feel even through my mask. It was an enchanting night in Manhattan.  

We began walking through Rockefeller Center. The massive Christmas tree was illuminated with colorful lights and a huge, white star on top. Majestic-looking statues of angels with long trumpets surrounded the tree and under the tree, the famous, bronze statue of Prometheus stood. In the middle of all of this, there was a lit-up skating rink. 

"Hey," I said to Rafael, "can we stop for a few minutes and watch the skaters?" 

"Sure." 

We walked over and stood at the barricade of the ice. We pulled down our masks to talk. 

He asked: "Why did you want to watch people ice-skate?" 

"I just love ice-skating. I love doing it and watching it!" 

"Have you skated here?" 

"When I was in college," I smiled, my eyes sparkling like a little kid, "I was here almost every weekend during the winter but I haven't skated in a while." 

"We can skate together," he said. 

"You know how?" I was looking at him with some skepticism. 

"How dare you," he teased, "Despite common belief, I am very athletic." 

I laughed and said: "Okay, I believe you." 

"So come on, let's go skate!" 

He later told me that he suggested that we go ice-skating because he saw the adorable excitement within me when I was talking about it and he just wanted to make me happy. 

I exclaimed with a chuckle: "Now? But my skates are at my place and we need tickets to go in!" 

"I can buy the tickets and rent skates for us. Come on." 

Before I could protest, he gently grabbed my hand and happily led the way. He paid for the tickets and our skate rentals. I couldn't hide my extreme joy as I put on the skates. He also let me put my rose from him in his coat pocket while we skated. 

When we first stepped on the ice, it started to snow on us lightly. We glided side by side at first but I suddenly skated ahead of him and did a fancy spin and jump. 

"Show off," he laughed. 

He then grabbed my hand and twirled me around like we were slow dancing on the ice. As it snowed a bit more harder, we skated face-to-face and did some figure eights together. He also picked me up, spinning in fast circles. It tickled my stomach from the inside and we both couldn't stop laughing. This moment would become such a fun, romantic memory for the rest of my life. When he put me back on the ice, I felt dizzy. I tried to ignore the dizziness and continued to skate but I lost my balance.  

I almost fell back but he zipped behind me and caught me in his arms just in time. 

He asked: "Are you okay?" 

"Yeah, I'm fine." As I was in his arms, I was quite aware that we were within kissing distance and I could smell his musky cologne. I felt like I was spellbound, staring at him for a minute. There wasn't anything that I wanted do more than to kiss him but I didn't make a move on him. 

"I'm fine," I repeated with a smile, as he helped me stand, "thanks Rafael." Then, we continued skating, hand in hand. 

After an hour of skating, we walked home; still holding hands and talking. We were now at my door. I had my key and rose in one hand. I admit that I wanted him to kiss me but I didn't want to seem too desperate or pushy. I normally wouldn't kiss on a first date but this time was different, this guy was different. 

"I had a great time," I told him. 

"Me too. I haven't smiled that much in a long time." 

I blushed. 

"Well, pequeña rosa (little rose)," he said, his soft lips kissing the top of my hand like he was a prince courting a princess, "goodnight. We should do this again." 

"We should," I grinned, "Night Rafael." I slowly unlocked my door and walked in. He waited until I was inside before he walked to his door. 

As I closed my door behind me, I felt beyond giddy and a Cheshire Cat grin was glued to my face, for I knew that this date was the start of something incredible. 

To be continued... 

©Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2022 

This is a work of fan fiction using characters from the TV series, Law and Order: Special Victims Unit, which is trademarked by ©Dick Wolf.  

Author Notes: Things are heating up between Rosette and Rafa! I'm sorry that it took me forever to write this but I was having fun, lol. :) Part 3 will be worked on after the holidays. 

My original, annual Halloween story will be coming soon.  

Smooches and think Tink! 

     

                      


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