Thursday, March 20, 2014

Cyber Bully


 


I love social media,
It’s a good way to stay connected with family and old friends,
to meet new companions,
even to express my opinions. 
But there’s something wicked that people are posting, retweeting,
Something that keeps on trending,
when it needs to be ending,
It’s called cyber bullying.

Do you know the saying:
“Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words will never hurt me”?
Well, guess what,
They do hurt.
They cut deep, they can tear someone up from the inside out!
Oh yeah, it’s easy to torture someone online,
when you can tell yourself:
“Oh, I’m not being mean,
They’re just pointless words on a computer screen!”

Oh yeah, it’s easy to attack someone for being different on web sites,
when you can just abuse your First Amendment rights.
But tell me,
What would you do if that person was right in front of you?   

Cruel words and lies are like a computer virus.
Without protection or compassion, 
they can spread throughout someone’s mind,
Until the person is infected, so infected that the person crashes, becomes unresponsive;
Their self-esteem completely deleted!
So next time you post another comment or tweet,
You decide.
What kind of a person do you want to be?
A kind-hearted human being…or just another cowardly cyber bully?  



(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2014 

Any kind of bullying should stop...now!    

Monday, March 10, 2014

Resurrection Premiere



Last night, I watched the series premiere of “Resurrection” on ABC and I liked it. If you haven’t watched it yet, don’t worry, there won’t be any spoilers here. I’ll just tell you little things that I liked. I love the whole idea of a deceased loved one coming back after many years. I think that a lot of people will relate to this concept. Who hasn’t wished for a second chance with a deceased loved one? I also liked the mystery, suspense, and belief in it. All of the characters aren’t so sure what to think the whole time. They’re thinking: Is this real? What or whom should I believe? 

Omar Epps, who played Dr. Eric Foreman in “House”, now plays the immigration agent in “Resurrection”. His character in this seemed cool. He wanted to find the truth no matter what. This show is very creative, mystifying, and to me, is filled with questions of faith. I think that this show is going to be a big hit. I can’t wait for more!

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Happy Single Queen 2014



Some women my age are so blind going into dating. They’re desperately searching for Mr. Perfect, kissing every “frog,” no matter how slimy they are but I’m different. Yes, once upon a time, I was that girl who thought that finding a man was key to happiness and that I would fall in love quickly with prince charming like a Disney princess but after several cheaters, dozens of liars, one crush that went absolutely nowhere, and one deranged, schizophrenic, controlling guy, whom I’m pretty sure was the Jack the Ripper of the 21st century, that happily ever after belief soon changed. I’m not saying that I completely gave up on romance. My happily ever after is still out there. I still have the sweetest fantasies about love but I’m just not that helpless princess who is waiting longingly up in her tower for her knight-in-shining-armor to save her anymore. I’m the single and extremely happy queen who is enjoying life on her own. I’m very open minded. If romance wants to make an appearance and if there’s a guy out there who will prove to me that he’s my king, I’m all for it. He just has to impress me in a major way. Just saying I love you won’t be enough. There has to be respect and loyalty too.

I’m not looking everywhere for him either. He’ll find me and if it’s real, I’ll feel it. It’s true, I tend to flirt with guys online (bad habit) but let’s face it, that’s all pretend. I have to be myself with or without a man. I’ll always be happy as long as I have my family and friends. My joy, hopes, opinions, and dreams will always rein.   




Sunday, January 19, 2014

Stop Twisting Tweets To Use As Quotes (I Believe You Liam)



I usually don't blog about tabloid stories but people are being plain ignorant to Liam Payne from One Direction! They are saying that he supports anti-homosexuality beliefs but that's not true. He just tweeted to one of the guys from Duck Dynasty, saying that he was a fan of the show and that he was happy that the family on the show stuck together. I actually read the tweet (yes, I follow celebrities on Twitter) and he didn't agree or support the anti-homosexuality comments that Phil Robertson made. It didn't even come up in the tweet. It was just about how he liked the show and how he respected their family values! The media just twisted his words to make it sound like he was supporting Phil's comments. Now some people, even some 1D fans are mad. Journalists shouldn't twist and use the words out of context in people's tweets just to get a juicy story. Come on, Liam is a nice guy and Twitter is supposed to be fun! 

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Hey Steven



 

Hey Steven, 

I'm thinking of you today. I miss you but I know that you're still watching over us and that you're having a blast up in Heaven. We're all celebrating your memory today. You were a great guy and we were blessed to have you in our lives. I love ya! :)

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Busy Bee


  


This is a random blog entry just to tell everyone what I've been doing. Of course, there was Thanksgiving, Christmas, and awesome family stuff but I've been also typing my first draft of my novel. November was National Novel Writing Month and that’s when I decided to refocus on my book that began writing back when I was 18. Even though this book and its characters had always been important to me, I realized that it was put on the back burner because of other stories and poetry so ever since November, I've been writing it constantly. It’s been so much fun and I feel so determined. All of my family and friends have been supportive but some people for some strange reason think that once I’m done typing this draft, I’ll be completely finished when that’s so untrue. It’s a long process. There’s proofreading, editing, and probably more drafts until I think that it’s perfect.  I love the writing process. I’m not rushing it. Creativity is second nature for me and the editing aspect is just fun for me because I like grammar, believe it or not. See you later!  



Monday, November 11, 2013

Happy Birthday Steven!



Hi Steven,


Happy birthday! How are you? Are you partying up there? I’m great, finally finishing my book. I was just thinking about you today. I remember how we ate White Castles almost on your every birthday, how your face lit up when I got you those hockey cards for Christmas. I miss your voice, your sweet smile but I know that you still watch over us. We love you and always will.   

Thursday, October 10, 2013

beyond Imagination


                                                                          
                                     

Beyond Imagination 

On a dark Halloween night, under a blood moon, I’m deep in the woods, dancing madly with the most evil of creatures. Zombies with their slimy, rotting flesh crave for human brains, as they move aimlessly in circles. Being only shadow figures, faceless demons whisper alluring, deceitful promises, as they waltz about. Vampires twirl seductively, their sharp fangs bright, as they call out for their victims. Dark sorceresses and sorcerers with their long, red, flowing robes conjure up the depths of Hell, as screaming wraiths hover above us.   

The evil then spreads beyond the woods, beyond imagination. Jason Voorhees decapitates a group of local campers with his great, lethal machete. Haunting her nightmares, Freddy Krueger slashes tiny Alice’s tummy, disemboweling the innocent sleeper; all the while Chucky the doll is asking all of the little kiddies to come out and play, luring them to their graves.

Why is an ordinary, harmless woman like me associating with such evil? You better look again. Do you see my eyes? They are glowing hellish red. Do you see my smile? It is a wide, soulless, Jack-o'-lantern-like grin. Now look closer. Do you see the huge butcher knife that is dripping blood in my hand? This is the part where you run feebly, where you scream for help but no one comes. It’s no use. I will get you, gut you like a fish, hang you in a nearby tree, and continue dancing madly, as your body decays. 




(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2013


Happy Halloween! ;-) 



Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Wonderland Camp, Fall 2013


Last weekend I went to Wonderland Camp and I had a blast! I saw my old friends: Chelsea, Brandi, Alena, Dustin, Brad, Angie, Ben, Morgan, Ann, Kortney, and Jason. I also made new friends: Cookie, Brooke, Gianna, and Mindy. When I first got there on Friday, we watched the movie ‘Up’. It was cute as always. After dinner, we had a campfire. The fire was very bright and smoky in the night air. We sang camp songs, told silly, “scary” stories,  and Dustin sang and played his guitar. Then, we had s’mores. They were all kinds of gooey, chocolaty goodness.

On Saturday, it was raining cats and dogs. After breakfast, we had inside activities. Being silly, Cookie and I chased Brad around the dining hall. It was so hilarious! :) Then, we did crafts. I painted a pumpkin and made a paper, three-eyed scarecrow.  We also had face-painting.  I had my whole face painted like a zombie with fake scars and blood. It was very cool.

Later, at rest time, I laid in my bed for once but Chelsea and I were texting and calling Scott, bugging him. Everyone in my cabin was laughing. Then, after snack, back in the dining hall, Dustin made up a game called Karaoke Roulette. We picked a random track and without knowing what song it was, we sang it. It was quite funny and ironic when I got a Jonas Brothers’ song, considering I think that they’re a poor excuse for a boy band, lol :) . While I was still hanging out in the dining hall, Scott surprised me and came to visit me with his friend. I was so happy to see him. He stayed for dinner.     

After dinner, the dance began. I wore my favorite purple top, black Mary Janes, and skinny blue jeans. I also wore my favorite glittery, purple eye shadow and red lipstick. The dining hall was filled with balloons and the technicolored lights were spinning, as the music was blasting through the camp’s old speakers. I danced with Brad, Cookie, and other friends. I also loved twirling, making myself dizzy and tickling the inside of my stomach. The night was amazing!


On Sunday, it was time to go home. Last days of camp go way too fast. I was hanging out with Brad after breakfast and before I knew it, Mom and Dad arrived. Last weekend was awesome!! I can’t wait for next summer and fall to see all of my friends! Wonderland Camp will always be on the top of my list of splendid places.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Different Ways


Different Ways

There’s no such thing as “disabled”,
Only different ways of living.
No one is a victim,
If they keep on fighting.
With the truest belief deep in your heart,

Your dreams will someday be awakened. 



(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2013 

I don't like to use the term disabled anymore because I'm able to do a lot despite my condition. I want to tell anyone with physical or mental challenges to don't give up..ever.     

Monday, August 19, 2013

Wonderland Camp, August 2013






Last week, I went to Wonderland Camp and as always, I had a blast! I saw my old friends: Michelle, Victoria, Alena, Jason, Kortney, Taylor, Kristie, Jeff, Ben, Brad, Dustin, Kayla S., Kayla W., Mary, and Morgan. I also made some new friends: Jeffrey, Brittany, Mandi, “Herbie”, Crystal, and Sara. On Sunday, We had a pool party. It was ice cold but Kortney and I went in anyway. Herbie and Michelle were so sweet and tried not to let us get too chilled. The camp wasn’t as busy with people as before but it still had the welcoming feeling that I love. I was so happy to be back.

On Monday morning, it was very stormy. I was watching the rain and in my Edward Cullen loving mind, the camp reminded me of cloudy Forks like in Twilight, which was sort of cool. What can I say? I have a vivid imagination and I love those books. For the most of that morning after breakfast, people napped but Kortney and I had our own fun, talking and coloring.

Later that day, the sun finally came out and we went to Crafts. We tie-dyed our shirts. My shirt had a splattered design. Michelle splashed every color on my shirt with her hand. It looked so cool and unique. Then that afternoon, my cabin hung out in the tree house. I love it up there. Because it’s so high, it always feels like I’m flying and the view is incredible. Listening to music, we played Truth or Dare and other games. We even ate dinner up there. We all had a relaxing time.  

For the evening activity, we had a movie night. My cabin went to the movie with our pajamas on and I put soda in my water bottle so I had something sweet to drink. We watched “Night at the Museum”.  I’ve watched that movie a dozen of times (most times probably at camp) but it was cute. After the movie, my cabin went on a scavenger hunt to get our snack. It was quite an adventure. Who knew that camp could get that dark? Using our flashlights, we went all over camp up to the tree house. Kortney got lost in the dark once and laughing, I lit a path for her with my flashlight.        

On Tuesday morning after breakfast, we had pool time. Kortney and I just laid our chairs back and tanned by the pool. The sun was warm and soothing while we sipped on drinks (me with my remaining coffee and Kortney with her Dr. Pepper). Later that day, we had Rec and Crafts. In Crafts, we had a choice of making scarecrow, or a snowman, or a ghost (because that week’s theme was “all holidays”). I chose to make a ghost and Kayla S. helped me. I drew a scary face on it, which made Kayla and I laugh. In Rec, we had mummy races. We got wrapped with toilet paper and we had to run across the field. It was so funny. Some paper fell over my eyes and I had to tear it off of my face while I was racing. Then after the race, we just played soccer.

During the evening, it was karaoke. Everyone was excited to sing. I sang Taylor Swift’s “Love Story”. Then I danced and hung out with friends.  There was also people dressed as clowns outside, face painting and making balloon animals. Michelle got me a purple balloon dog.  It was a fun night.

On Wednesday morning, we took a hayride through the woods, down to the water front.  At the water front, we rode the boat and as always, the bouncy waves rocked me to sleep on Kortney’s shoulder. Later that day, Michelle and I hung out in the game room and listened to the jukebox. We were singing and acting goofy.

Then that evening, the talent show started. Brad was hilarious when he pumped up the crowd. It was impossible not to cheer or smile. In the show, there were a lot of hysterical, adorable skits, where a camper ‘married’ a counselor and Brad conducted ‘the ceremony’. (I wish that I’d thought of that a couple of years  ago, lol). For my talent, I sang Britney Spears’ “Lucky”. I also sang Carrie Underwood’s “Jesus, Take the wheel” with Sara and Crystal.  The talent shows are always entertaining.

On Thursday morning, we just hung out mainly. During breakfast, they told me that I had a “surprise” coming. I had a hunch that Joe was visiting but they wouldn’t tell me until lunchtime. He got there at nap time while I was hanging out outside. I was thrilled to see him! I gave him a big hug, dropping my pen and journal that I was holding.  Brittany and Kortney were laughing because I couldn’t stop smiling. We talked throughout nap time and he had everyone outside cracking up. He stayed for dinner and of course for the dance.

For the dance, I wore a black and white top, my favorite pair of skinny jeans, my favorite pair of black shoes, and I had my hair spiked. When the dance finally started, Joe drove me to the dining hall. He spun me in circles, the colors of the bright lights blurring together and my stomach being tickled from the inside.  Singing, he also took me out of my chair and danced with me, which was awesome! I was grinning from ear to ear. I’ll never forget it. I spent the whole night with him. The night was downright amazing!!


On Friday, it was bittersweet. Even though I was exhausted, I didn’t really want to leave. The week had been such fun and it was great to see my friends. I didn’t want it to end but I knew that Wonderland Camp will always be there for me to make more memories. I’ll be back in the fall and new stories will be told.

Never Forget

  Never forget  September 11, 2001  Smooches, prayers, and think Tink.