Thursday, December 14, 2017

Save Net Neutrality

The FCC vote to destroy the Net Neutrality protections on Dec. 14 cannot stand. For some American citizens, the internet is more than entertainment; it's a learning tool, a window to the world, a lifeline, a way to connect with loved ones and new people around the world. Also, not all Americans can afford to pay ridiculous fees just to be online. I want an open and uncensored internet. I urge congress to overturn the FFC's vote. 

Monday, December 11, 2017

A Funny Moment ๐Ÿ˜„

Me: *Nonchalantly turns on a Shane Dawson video* .
Daddio: *Walks into my room and lets out an exasperated sigh*: TURN IT DOWN! ๐Ÿคจ *Shuts my door*.

Well...that's one way to get my privacy, lol!๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜œ

Btw, I just love this picture.⇧ Shane looks so sexy, dressed in punk clothes! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿคค ⇧ I guess that there's no cure for bad boy syndrome...even in my thirties. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Saturday, December 9, 2017

Just Some Things That Make Me Happy ๐Ÿ˜


Tonight, I'm going to list some things that make me happy. Why? I don't know...just because I can...and maybe I'm hyped on peppermint mocha coffee. The weirdest, simplest things bring me joy.

First, here's a fan-edit that I made about Shane Dawson and Ryland Adams: 

(Making fan-edits is just a side hobby of mine) 

Secondly, here's Ryland's new silly song/music video,"A Clickbait Christmas"

Thirdly, here's a few of pictures that make me smile:


Finally, here are some other videos that I just love: 






Saturday, December 2, 2017

Please Let it Snow ❄☃๐Ÿคฉ

Late last night, I had a dream that I woke up to see that it was gently snowing outside of my window. I shouted excitedly to my parents: "It's snowing...look!" The sky was a peculiar purple color and it was so beautiful with the whiteness of the snow. I was so happy that it was snowing that I was jumping on the bed and laughing. Then, I really woke up to sunshine, me wishing for snow, and with my feet being strangely sore, ๐Ÿ˜ƒ lol. 


Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Shane and All of the Feels


If you follow me on twitter, you know that I talk about Shane Dawson a lot (I'm sorry, I'm not sorry lol). Well, I'm going to gush about him a little bit more here tonight. He's usually known for being funny and silly but this week, he uploaded a very moving three-part series about him reconnecting with his dad. I won't go into a full Shane Dawson biography (even though I probably could) but he had a rough childhood and not a great relationship with his dad.

Shane talks about his past, his mom talks about his dad and shows Shane old pictures, and he finally sees his dad at a beach that he went to as a little kid. I'm going to sound like such a fan-girl right now but I don't care. I'm so proud of him. He had the courage to reach out, really get to know his dad, and forgive him. I remember a time when he resented his dad and here he was, hugging and laughing with him. Shane also showed a vulnerable side, which we rarely get to see. When he got emotional, I caught myself getting teary eyed. The utter joy on his face by the end was so touching that I had to stop myself from bawling. I loved these videos so much! Please watch! ⇩⇩⇩⇩⇩⇩⇩⇩⇩⇩

Here are some other fans who support Shane.

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

the Holidays (Happy Thanksgiving)

The holidays should be about fun family gatherings, happiness, and togetherness, 
not about the fanciest feasts, or the hottest trends, or the biggest sales.

I'm very thankful for my family and friends. ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿค—Happy Thanksgiving! 

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Happy Birthday Steven! ๐Ÿ’–

Hi Stevie Wevie, 

Happy birthday! Just thinking of you today. I just know that you're celebrating up there. We all miss you everyday but we know that you're in a joyous place now. Party hard! ๐Ÿ˜œ 


Wednesday, November 8, 2017

a Disturbing Jester Dream

I had a slightly disturbing dream. In the dream, I went on a road trip with Kortney, Jeff, and Jay and we rented a bus. The good looking bus driver, who was muscular with black hair, hazel eyes, and a mischievous grin, was flirting with me the whole time. We were at an old, abandoned, stone castle for some odd reason. The bus driver was kissing me and was trying to lead up the spiral staircase, practically dragging me by the hand. Instead of his seductive, mischievous grin, I saw an insidious smile. 

My heart pounding and pulling my hand away, I suddenly exclaimed: "Wait!" The moment that I spoke up, he stopped walking. He started shaking violently and making gargling sounds. I turned him around to face me and blood was profusely coming out of his eyes, ears, nose, and mouth. I screamed in horror. His heart literally came out of his chest and he regurgitated it out of his throat, making it blob out onto the ground and killing him. I was running past a mirror but instead of seeing my reflection, I saw a blonde jester girl with red eyes and blood all over her. She was wearing a red and black costume and was grinning wickedly at me. (No, it wasn't Harley Quinn, the girl in my dream was more creepy).

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Happy Halloween 2017!

October 31, 2017 

October 28, 2017 

It's awesome to have a kooky family who loves Halloween. I'm so lucky! ๐ŸŽƒ๐Ÿ˜œ

Monday, October 23, 2017

My Strange, Halloween Dream ๐ŸŽƒ

I have a very strange dream last night. In the dream, my family and I went to the mall to meet Halloween cartoon characters. Apparently, in my version of the world, cartoons can come and do meet and greets (lol ๐Ÿ˜„). Jack Skellington was in Hot Topic, meeting humans. He was extremely tall and he had to bend down low just have make eye contact with some people. There were also multiple creepy Mickey Mouse mascots walking around the mall with no eyes, just black holes. They were so disturbing. 

I hugged Jack's waist when I met him and we talked about my love for Halloween. He was chuckling because he thought that I was entertaining. Then, for no reason, I stood on my tip-toes and I just kissed him. When I kissed him, he magically turned into a human guy with pale skin, short, black hair, and tiny, glowing, jack-o'-lanterns in the pupils of his eyes. I guess that this was my twisted version of a fairy tale. Yeah, you have my permission to laugh ๐Ÿ˜€๐ŸŽƒ .

Friday, October 20, 2017

Just Makes Me Happy ☺

These three pictures ⇧ just make me happy. ⇧ Enjoy! Remember to think Tink and believe in yourself.๐Ÿงš‍♀️ 

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Wonderland Camp, October 2017

Last weekend, I had a blast at Wonderland Camp! On Friday, I saw my old friends: Cookie, Ann, Polly, Jan, and Shelby. I was so happy to see them. I also made new friends: Tasha and Molly. We were in the BHA (Brown Hall A) cabin. We just hung out outside until dinner time.There was a small hill in front of the cabin and I was speeding up and down it, tickling the inside of my stomach. 

After dinner, we had a campfire. We laughed and sang old camp songs. I have heard these songs so much over the years that I bet that I could sing them in my sleep, lol! ๐Ÿ˜„ It was fun. Then, we ate some gooey, exquisite s'mores. ๐Ÿ˜‹ Cookie and I helped Ann clean up after the fire. Before bed, we sat on the porch and called our friend Dustin on Ann's phone. It was nice to talk to him.

On Saturday morning, we did arts and crafts. I drew on a paper pumpkin and decorated on it with stickers. Then, I just doodled some random stuff on paper. I'm not really crafty but I try at camp, lol! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ After crafts, we shot bb guns. Ann and I hit the target two times. It was cool. 

After lunch, we took a hayride down to the water front and rode the boat. I fell asleep off and on because it was so relaxing. It was windy and some of the boat ride was also bumpy. It was nice. Then, we watched the Disney Channel movie, Halloweentown in the dinning hall and ate some popcorn. We then decorated actual pumpkins with paint and markers. We also decorated trick-or-treat bags and I drew pictures of my favorite horror movies on mine.

After dinner, later that evening, we put on our costumes. Cookie, Ann, and I were all witches. My mom made Cookie and me matching wands. We took another hayride around the camp. Camp looks so beautiful and majestic at night. We even saw a deer. Then, we all lined up for the haunted house. Normally, I think that the camp's haunted house just has sugar-coated scares but this year, they legitimately made me jump out of my skin. Do you know about my acute fear of realistic dolls that move? Well, in the haunted house, there were dolls. ๐Ÿ˜ฒ There was a person in baby doll mask (I'm pretty sure that it was a counselor named Andi) banging on a door loudly. It made me jump but I didn't scream yet. Going further, I then saw a Chucky doll smiling at me. I let out a squeal and nearly jumped out of my chair, exclaiming: "Oh my God...crap!" Then, I started laughing at myself for being scared. Cookie was out of there as soon as she saw Chucky (I guess that I know who would survive a horror movie, lol ๐Ÿ˜†). It was funny and so much fun. They poured candy in our trick-or-treat bags at the exit.   

Then, the dance began. The music was booming and the lights were twinkling like stars. I danced with all of my friends and sang loudly. Cookie and I even chased each other and began to have a pretend, silly duel with our wands. It was an awesome night! 

On Sunday, my mom and dad picked me up. The whole weekend was so much fun and it was good to see my friends. The weekend went too fast but I know that I'll be back in the summer. Besides, there's still more Halloween fun to have this month at home. ๐ŸŽƒ๐Ÿ˜‰๐ŸฆŽ

Sunday, October 8, 2017

the Creepy Side of Me (a Halloween Poem)

the Creepy Side of Me 

There's a dark, soulless, creepy side of me;
The side that no one gets to see. 
It comes out at midnight, 
when everyone is asleep. 
One of my eyes glow emerald green and another glows pumpkin-orange;
my lips becoming blood-red, 
my skin becoming as pale as the dead. 

I levitate above the streets, 
lurking around the neighborhood; 
stalking the innocent from their beds.

I then creep into the woods, 
dancing with the devil, 
letting myself be caressed by absolute evil.  

I drink virgin blood and cackle with a group of murderous witches, 
wielding a huge butcher knife. 
I'm becoming monstrous 
but I don't care or notice.

(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2017 

This is just a Halloween poem ๐ŸŽƒ ...or is it? ๐Ÿ˜ˆ I hope that it crept you out. ๐Ÿ˜ˆ Hehe!

Monday, October 2, 2017

Why? ๐Ÿ–ค

I woke up to the devastating news of the shootings in Las Vegas and all that I could ask was: Why? Why do people shoot each other? Why did he want to hurt innocent people? It's so sad. My thoughts and prayers go out to the victims and the loved ones of the victims.๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ–ค Stop the hate and unnecessary violence. 



It's October, yay!! The month of pumpkin spice everything, horror movies, costumes, ghosts, and leaves. I'm excited! HAPPY HALLOWEEN!