Saturday, October 29, 2011

My Halloween Treat


My Halloween Treat 

The werewolves are howling at the moon and the witches are cackling as they take flight but I want to take you into the wicked night with me, waltz with you into a room of glowing jack-o’-lanterns. The evil queen is offering me a poisoned apple and I would eat a dozen of them as long as I could taste your sweet, candy corn kiss each time. The hungry zombies might begin to chase me but I don’t care if I’m running with you. During the time of trick-or-treat, you’re the only Halloween treat that my heart craves.


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 

Almost Halloween night! Yes!!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Family Day At Six Flags




Today I went to Six Flags with Mom, Dad, Aunt Kathy, Uncle Larry, Amanda, Craig, and Gracie. It was so much fun!! W rode a lot of rides and we were a barrel of laughs. When we were in the air, my stomach flip-flopped. It felt like I was flying and I love that ascending feeling. I also love spending time with my family. Everyone is always grinning. I’m never bored. Today was just a perfect day.

Blood On Pumpkins

 


Blood On Pumpkins 

It was a blustery Halloween night with the full moon high in the sky. The wind was so loud that it was hard to tell whether it was just ordinary wind blowing or tormented spirits howling for mercy. Thick, ominous fog also consumed the entire town and fear was just waiting to strike at any moment. On this cold, eerie night, Eighteen-year-old Christina Shane was walking through an old pumpkin patch with her sixteen-year-old boyfriend Peter Matthews, on their way home from a costume party. Christina was in a long, flowing, white nightgown and had her hair curled childishly, dressed as Wendy Darling and Peter, of course, was dressed as Peter Pan in a green shirt of leaves, a green, triangular hat with a red feather, and green tights. 

“Real men wear tights,” Christina had told him with a pleading smile the day before, trying to talk him into it. It was her favorite book as a kid and his name was actually Peter. She thought, “How could we not go as Peter and Wendy? It’s fate.” 

“But Babe…,” he had complained. He wasn’t too keen about this idea but he did it for her. Seeing her happy was worth all the jokes that he was going to get from his buddies.  

They were walking through the pumpkin patch, both wearing jackets and using their cell phones as flashlights to see through the fog. They were also holding hands, talking 
affectionately to each other, and snuggling to keep warm. “You’re so beautiful tonight,” he said into her ear. 

“Thanks Sweetheart,” she said warmly, blushing, “I can’t think of anybody else that I rather walk with…but why are we walking through this pumpkin patch? It’s taking forever.” 

“It’s a shortcut to your house,” he replied, “Besides this pumpkin patch has some cool history…just a perfect ghost story to tell on Halloween.” He then made a ghostly sound and raised his eyebrows mischievously.

With her cell phone shining, Christina looked around. There were rows and rows of plump pumpkins of all sizes with vines entwining as far as she could see, hay and dirt scattered everywhere. There was a tall scarecrow in the middle of all with a large, pointed hat and old, ripped farming clothes. Its head was a big pumpkin and its carved face looked angry, crazed, and monstrous. The hay on the top of the head that acted as hair stood stiffly out from its hat, looking like the scarecrow was just electrocuted. Next to this disturbing scarecrow, a huge axe laid on the ground. The scarecrow made Christina nervous and she didn’t know why. She asked, “What story?” 

Peter cleared his throat and began to tell the story that was told by his insane aunt and terrified him when he was little:

“Once there were two brothers. One was the oldest and a respectable policeman named Patrick and the other was the youngest and a lonesome, crazy farmer named Rick. Rick was unstable because some said that their mother never loved as much as his brother. His brother always looked after him though. One Halloween night, a dozen of people from the town came to the patch, which was Patrick idea, for a party. Everything was going well and people were having fun until one hyper, little boy picked up the biggest pumpkin from the patch and accidentally dropped it, smashing it on the ground. Rick suddenly went into a rage, picking up an axe. His brother tried to calm him down but Rick hit Patrick in the back of the head and knocked him unconscious, leaving the innocent people at Rick’s mercy. First, with one quick swing of the axe, he decapitated the little boy’s and the boy’s mother’s head, their heads rolling at his feet. Then he went on a killing spree, murdering everyone at the party; decapitating, disemboweling, and cutting throats. By the time Patrick woke back up, everybody was dead, their blood and intestines splattered everywhere, including on the pumpkins, and the odor of death was thick in the air. Rick was about to attack him but he had a gun and shot his crazed brother, killing him instantly. Because of his extreme guilt from the massacre, Patrick then shot himself. People say that ever since that night, the soil is cursed because of all of the spilt blood and the dead still haunt the patch every Halloween night. The scarecrow also wears the clothes that Rick wore that night and is possessed by the farmer’s sick soul…waiting to come alive…to kill again!” 

Peter then jumped behind Christina as he spoke the last sentence of the story and wrapped his arms around her waist, making her laugh. 

“That is such a bull crap story,” she laughed, acting like she didn’t believe one word of it. Yet, she was walking faster now. 

“My Aunt Leanna told me the story,” he replied. 

Christina asked, “Did you tell me that she was institutionalized last year?” 

“Well,” he said with a slight chuckle, “I’ve always said that she would be a female version of Stephen King if she wasn’t such a looney toon.” 

“You’re terrible,” she snickered.

As they continued to walk, a church bell rang from a distance, striking twelve. Christina kept her eyes nervously on the scarecrow the whole time. She didn’t like the thing at all. Then, all of a sudden, the fog evaporated away and what they saw made both of their hearts stop in mid-beat. All of the pumpkins were seating in a straight line and carved, having faces of complete anguish. Human blood oozed out of the pumpkins’ faces and Christina felt her stomach turn. 

“Oh my…,” she exclaimed. 

Peter only could stand there in disbelief, his face turning pale. 

“Let’s call the cops,” she said, trying desperately to hide her panic. 

He guffawed and replied, “And say what babe? The pumpkins are bleeding?”   

Christina was about to dial 9-1-1 anyway when the unnerving, shrill sound of screams surrounded them out of nowhere and pierced their ears. The screams were of men, women, and children, getting louder, louder, and LOUDER. Christina and Peter both cried out in pain and covered their ears tightly, feeling like their eardrums were about to burst. They both dropped their phones and broke them. They tried to make a run for it. They were only steps away from out of the pumpkin patch but a sheet of fog reappeared at their exit. When they tried to go through it, it felt like they were choking, their throats abruptly closing, so they dashed back. 

 The screaming continued and to their absolute horror, ghostly hands busted through the top of the pumpkins. Peter shrieked and Christina was petrified but she was trying to think of what to do next. The screams then stopped unexpectedly but the hands were waving wildly at something behind Peter. Christina looked and her worse fear of the night was realized. The scarecrow was now standing behind Peter with its pumpkin head tilted slightly and the axe raised in the air, getting ready to kill. “PETER..RUN,” she shouted, grabbing his shirt.

They ran through the patch, going through a jungle of hands, as the scarecrow chased them. They kept dodging the swaying blade but the scarecrow was getting closer by the minute. They just wanted to escape this nightmare but the wall of fog was still there. As they were running, Peter tripped and fell, and before Christina knew what was happening, the scarecrow grabbed him by his collar. 

“PETER, HOLD ON!” She ferociously  kicked the scarecrow in the head and he fell over, throwing Peter onto the ground. Then she tried to grab the axe but the scarecrow stood back up and twisted her arm. She cried to Peter, “RUN NOW!” 

Peter couldn’t move though. He wanted to help his girl but he didn’t know how. Christina finally got away from the scarecrow’s grip and she attempted to kick again but the scarecrow swiftly swung his axe, cutting her deeply in the abdomen. Her blood squirting out, she gasps in agony and fell. 

Peter cried out in despair and ran to her side. The scarecrow crept closer towards them and Peter was ready to die with her but she somehow got back up. With quivering lips and blood flowing out of her gut and mouth, she punched the scarecrow’s swinging arm. He lost his grip on his axe and she caught it. The scarecrow came at her and she swung with all of the strength she had left, chopping his pumpkin head off. The scarecrow moved about like a headless chicken and she continued chopping violently until he was no more. Peter was amazed. 

Her eyes rolling back in her head, she fell back down and Peter held her dying body. There was one explosion of screams for a second, the dead hands disappearing and the pumpkins being intact. Regular fog now covered the whole area again and everything seemed back to normal. 

“I’m so sorry,” he sobbed, “I should’ve…” 

“Don’t…,” she coughed.

“But you’re going to die,” he wept.

“Well, to die will be an awfully big adventure,” she said, quoting Peter Pan and smiling weakly. 

“I love you,” he said, kissing her cold, bloody lips.

“I love you too,” she uttered, slowing fading away. She died in his arms that frightful Halloween night. Peter never had a restful night again and she became another tortured soul, her blood being soaked into the earth. 



(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 




Happy Halloween people!!! :)

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Wonderland Fall Camp 2011



Last weekend I went to Wonderland Camp for the Fall Festival. I saw my old friends: Kortney, Angie, Mary, Whitney, Tesha, Hope, Colleen, Lois, Ann, Michelle, Chris, Allen, Alena, Polly, Kelsey, Sam, and Bethany. I also made some new friends: Caroline and Abby. It was my brother-in-law’s niece Lauren’s first time being at Wonderland as well. On Friday when we first got there, we just hung out in the dinning hall and watched a movie called “Bridge to Terabithia” . I always liked that movie. Despite it having a sad ending, I noticed that during the movie all of the campers, including Kortney and I, were extremely hyper and were practically bouncing off of the walls. I think that we were only half watching the movie. It was awesome to see everyone’s smiles. Later that evening, we sat around the campfire, sang songs, and ate s’mores. It was a beautiful, nippy, starry night with the campfire aroma in the air. Kortney, Lauren, and I were staring at sparkling stars. I made a wish on a star that looked bigger and brighter from the rest. It was a great, relaxing night.

On Saturday morning, we went to the water front and rode the boat. It was a blustery ride and Kortney and I sat close to each other to keep warm. After the boat ride, Angie and I hung out in the dinning hall while I drank my Pepsi Throwback. Later that afternoon, we had a hay ride. Kortney, Hope, Kelsey, Angie, Mary, Lauren, and I were goofing around on the ride, making each other laugh. Then after the ride, we painted pumpkins and it was fun and messy. My pumpkin was very colorful. At dinnertime, I got a special surprise. Alena had a special letter for me and I had to sing a silly song to her to get it (sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, the only song that popped in my head at the time). It was so funny. The letter was from my friend Joe and I was so, so excited! Then that evening, the dance began. I wore my glittery gray shirt, my black skinny jeans, and black shoes. The hall was filled with rumbling music and the spinning lights were as dazzling as ever. The crowd was a mixture of people wearing Halloween costumes and people just wearing dress clothes. It was an interesting sight. I danced with all of my friends, especially Chris, Hope, Angie, Whitney, Michelle, and Lauren. It was an amazing night!!

On Sunday, we just played bingo in the morning. I finally won! After bingo, I went to the game room then the cabin. I was reading a random book until my parents came. The book was “the return of the Indian”, the sequel to “the Indian in the Cupboard”. This weekend was a blast! It was good to see friends. I’m looking forward to next summer, to more extraordinary memories.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Orange and Black

 

 

Orange and Black

Spellbinding October is coming, the time of orange and black; time of rolling pumpkins and screeching, mischievous imps. It’s the time for fallen multicolored leaves of all shapes and sizes on the ground crunching underneath your feet and for the darkest nights with the most bizarre shadows, both looking like captivating Autumn paintings. People will ask you with playful smiles rather if you want a trick or a treat, sweets melting on your tongue. The chill of the bitter wind will touch your spine and you’ll get the peculiar urge to dance underneath the moonlight.  


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 

I love October, especially Halloween. :)


Monday, September 19, 2011

Love is Everywhere

 
I drew on this on the computer, inspired by the efforts of the non-profit organization To Write Love On Her Arms. They're dedicated to helping those struggling with addiction, depression, self-injury, and suicide. I fully support this cause. Love is everywhere even in the darkness.  

Shadow Princess's Stylebook from September 2011

Shadow Princess's Stylebook from September 2011

Click the link above to see my A-Z Dress Up avatars

Monday, September 12, 2011

What I Never Told You



What I Never Told You



 2007-2009 (3 years of hell)

I never thought that a random person that I chatted with online would alter my life until I met Daemon Corns from Glasgow, Scotland.  He tried to not only alter it but smash it into pieces. I was his puppet on strings, being controlled by his words. Things weren't always that insane with Daemon. We were quite sweet back in the day. I met him on StoryWrite.com, a writing site in 2007.  We chatted daily for hours, sharing stories and poetry, and it was a blast. He had an alluring Scottish accent and seemed so captivating, passionate, funny, and romantic. I'll never forget that summer  night when he first instant messaged me and turned on his cam, then seeing his charming smile and jungle green eyes. Even though he was only seventeen and I was twenty when we first met, the undeniable attraction was there. He was already promised me that he would be my best friend forever and that he would never hurt me. Everything seemed so perfect. I was instantly hooked on him. We were so innocent and child-like back then.

A year had passed and he was now eighteen. I was ready to tell him about my feelings. I wrote him a love poem called My Escape and posted it on StoryWrite:


“You’re my escape; my friend when life is too much to take. Even though we haven’t talked face to face, it feels like I know you, for you are so kind and true. We make a connection from miles away, We bond in a different place and time; always on each other’s minds. Will we ever meet? Will I ever see you smile at me? I have no idea, the future is the thing that I can’t foresee. But I want our friendship to stay;  to never change, come what may.”

It took him a while to realize that it was about him, but he finally got it and he told me that he felt the same. I was on cloud nine. I thought that he truly loved me. While being his “online girlfriend“, he said that he would be with me for the rest of his life. Blindly, I was in awe. A guy never said such things to me before. Things were no longer child-like between us but all of my sense went out of the window. He acted like we were in a real, adult relationship and we even made a promise to meet and marry someday. I loved the rush that he gave me. In my mind, I saw a small, quaint, green colored house that would look like a dollhouse that I had as a kid, sitting on a hill and Daemon and I starting a life together in it. Then, before I knew what was coming or realize what mistake I was making, my fairy tale quickly turned into a nightmare.

It was a chilly October and I had went out of the town for a Halloween weekend at Lazy Dayz Camp. When I got home, I was ready to tell my so-called “loving boyfriend” about all of the fun things that I did but I noticed that something was wrong. His replies came too slow and he seemed distracted and indifferent. “What wrong?” I typed, being weary of his answer. His reply was quick this time and he abruptly confessed. He had cheated on me by kissing another girl and then more swiftly than I could blink, he broke up with me, which broke my heart beyond belief.  He didn’t even bother to say sorry. He just got offline. “He can’t,” I thought desperately, “Why?” I fell out of my desk chair and onto the floor. I cried myself to sleep until my throat was sore and somehow got a high fever. I told myself to block him but I didn’t. I was usually a smart woman. Normally, I wouldn’t  a boy get to me but something held me back. We got “back together” a few months later. We broke up and got back together six times. There was always another girl in the picture but I thought that I was in love and I didn't care about the extreme pain that his lies put me through or if he was just using me. I kept coming back and waited around online like a sick puppy.

By the time he was nineteen, he had changed and not in a good way. he was lying more, becoming so aloof and cold and he was a careless womanizer as well. He would sometimes get online just to start an argument, saying that I was annoying, a crazy witch, nothing but his dumb lass. He would also send me graphic, sleazy  pictures of him with other girls. Lies and hurtful words are like computer viruses. They rapidly spread and infecting everything in your heart and mind, making you malfunction until your whole system completely shuts down.  My self-esteem was slowly fading and I didn’t know what to do.

Like a fool, I wanted him back again after a sixth time of breaking up so one Friday night in May in 2009, I poured out my heart and soul to him but this time he finally rejected and dropped me like a bad habit. The loving Daemon who I fell for was nothing but a memory now. He abandoned his promises to me and he lost his pleasant spirit for good. His rejection finally made me come back to reality, made me see the light. I bawled so hard that night but I knew that I was going to be okay. I knew now that I didn't need him to survive. I would raise above this and pick myself from the ground. It hurt like hell but I just saved myself by hitting Delete.

Summer 2010 (a year later)

After Daemon, I stupidly “online dated” other losers like him and it always ended the same; me crying on the floor like an idiot. Then I soon came to the conclusion that the only men that I could trust were my dad, brother-in-law, and my uncles. Well…that was before I met my friend Maxwell. I met him at Lazy Dayz Camp one hot July week. He was a new volunteer at the time. I first saw him in the noisy, crowded dinning hall from a distance and I didn‘t know why but I kept staring at him. I didn’t get to talk to him though until the pool party that night. He was walking by when he saw me sitting on the side of the pool. He stopped mid-step and walked over to me. I tried not to blush.

Maxwell was like a ray of sunshine from the first hello. He kept me smiling. He was so funny. He would say, and believe it or not, sing anything just to get a laugh. His mischievous and boyish but warm smile and twinkling eyes gave me butterflies in my stomach and it was hard not to get giddy. I loved how he talked to me, being so understanding and accepting. He listened to me and I felt safe with him. I could tell him anything. As the week went on, I could that he was also compassionate with others. I saw him with other people and I could tell that he truly cared.

Later that week, Maxwell and I were at the camp dance. As the bright lights were spinning and the music was booming throughout the hall, he was twirling me ’round and ’round. It made me dizzy; faces, shapes, and colors blurring together but I loved it. It felt as though I was flying. I laughed and happily squealed until my throat was raw. In the middle of the dance floor, we then made a pact to be best friends forever and this time it was true.

Now, I was chatting online and sending letters to a friend who really could be trusted. It was as though I knew Maxwell all my life. No, we weren’t romantically involved like I secretly thought would’ve been amazing.  We were just close friends but I was so happy that he was in my life. I learned that sometimes I only needed to surround myself with people who are real and who honestly care about me. What I never told Maxwell is simple and from the bottom of my heart…Thank you for being a friend. I’m truly grateful to have you.


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011


This is loosely based off true events but this story is fictional. I wanted to show that cyber bullying can easily turn serious if you let it and that real friendship is out there.

Friday, September 9, 2011

God Is...



*In memory of 9/11*

God is the whisper of comfort in your ear,
God is always there.
God is the friend to talk to
when you feel alone.
God cries with you,
He understands your pain.
Don’t give up,
Everyone is safe with Him.


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011

Always remember...

Thursday, September 8, 2011

An Update



Hi, 


How are you all? I've been busy. I've started another psychology class online. It's interesting. I also submitted a horror story to a magazine called Dark Moon Digest. I'll know within 90 days if they'll publish it or not (keep your fingers crossed). I'm planning to start writing "the Impairy Story: Part 3" soon as well. I'm getting ideas. I'm going to Wonderland on September 30th for the fall weekend. I can't wait! Well, gotta roll. See you all later! Love you. 

Like A Teddy Bear





Like A Teddy Bear



Even though I’m loosening my grip on you for the both of us to find out what’s out there in the world, I’ll still love you like crazy. I’ll smile sincerely as I watch you change but I’ll always see the adorable Peter Pan-like joy in your eyes. I won’t cry as you say goodbye. I do want you to be happy. Even though I release you, my heart will always secretly cuddle you like a teddy bear. 



(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2011 


I was listening to love songs and thinking about one of my best friends when I wrote this. I was in a sappy mood. :) 

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