the Angel and the Devil (a poem)

the Angel and the Devil 

The angel and the devil on my shoulders
that are always whispering into my ear, 
directing my conscious
are friends. 
Instead of debating, 
trying to persuade me to go on their sides, 
their forces combine. 

I embrace goodness, I embrace darkness. 
I pray for peace but I love mischievousness.

I can be the sugar-coated, innocent 'Miss Sunshine', 
being the kindest to everything and everyone; 
But at a flip of a dime, 
I can be someone's worse nightmare;
Warped, psycho, and causing chaos without a care. 

I won't be a bully and tear anybody down
but I won't let anyone push me around. 

I won't kill 
but if you ever cross me, 
I'll make damn sure that your life is a living hell! 


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2019 

Poet Notes: Just a poem about my personality. 😜😎😈

Smooches and think Tink! 🧚🏻‍♀️💋

Child-like Heart (a poem)

Child-like Heart

It's difficult to have a child-like heart in an adult world
when at every corner, 
there are trolls screaming at me about politics and norms; 
Wanting me to be cynical and to conform. 

It's difficult to have a child-like heart in an adult world
but not impossible;
Just hide the key to your imagination in the back of your mind 
and remember that the world can still be fair, fun, magical. 


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2019 


P.S. I'm currently hyped on coffee and thoughts and ideas keep bouncing in my head, lol! 😜 ⇩

 

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SHYLAND IS ENGAGED!!!!!!!!! 🤵🏻🤵🏻💙

Shane Dawson and Ryland Adams are engaged!!!!!!! I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!💓😁😘😭 

Congrats Shane and Ryland. My fan-girl heart is bursting with joy for you guys! 💗 I love you both.

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Happy Anniversary Shane and Ryland! 💚

Happy 3rd anniversary Shane and Ryland, aka "Shyland"! You two are the cutest. I'm so happy that you two are so happy being with each other. Love stories can happen anywhere, anytime. 

Smooches and think Tink!

The Cat Controversy?! (#IStandWithShane) 💙

I guess that people online are really bored because there's another ridiculous, dumb rumor about Shane Dawson. People are actually saying that he's having sex with his cat. No, you didn't misread that...his cat! This rumor, which is NOT true, started when someone found an old audio clip of him making a joke about what he did to his mom's cat as a teenager. He wasn't being serious. He made up the whole story to be funny. When he first started Youtube, he did edgy, shock comedy. Most of his jokes were very off-beat and sometimes inappropriate back then. Even Shane is embarrassed of some of his old jokes. 

Here's his response to this:

Not only is this rumor stupid, it's also sick and just hateful. He has the kindest heart. He loves his animals.They're like his children. He wouldn't harm anyone or anything so let me make myself clear about all of the rumors about him for once and for all; Shane is NOT a pedophile, Shane is NOT into bestiality, and Shane is NOT a racist! Before you think, "Oh Lena, this is like any other celebrity that is hiding something, we don't know for sure", think about this; With R. Kelly, for example, there's explicit evidence of him being with underage girls. With Shane though, there's only a few ill-told jokes and that's it! I'm not saying that Shane has always been a perfect angel but bad jokes aren't illegal and he apologized for his old jokes about eighty-eight thousand times! If outrageous jokes could be proof of wrongdoing, then some of my uncles would be in trouble,😜, lol. Can people please just leave Shane alone and move on? There are actual sickos in the world and more important issues going on.

I love you Shane! #IStandWithShane 🐷💙 

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Really?! (My 2 Days of Hell)

It was a normal Tuesday. My dad turned on my laptop for me but when I looked at the screen, all that I could see was blue. I thought that it was weird but I didn't panic yet. I thought that maybe Dad just pressed a key accidentally. I turned it off and on again. Boy, I was wrong! It took 5 tries but I finally got off of the blue screen. There was only one problem though...EVERYTHING WAS GONE! 😱🤬I tried troubleshooting, I desperately tried everything under the sun. I always back-up my things on my OneDrive cloud but it was still upsetting to see my laptop wiped out. I restarted it for the eighth time but when it came back on, the screen asked what language does my keyboard use. It was restarting to factory mode, which I didn't select to do. I couldn't stop it. I had no choice. I'll admit, I started sobbing at this point. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Three hours later, I finally got to the regular screen. On Tuesday night and Wednesday morning, I was reinstalling stuff. I even had to leave my laptop on over night so it could update (it was a miracle that my obsessive self didn't get an eye twitch, lol 🤪). It was not fun but it could've been worse. My draft of my book was safe on OneDrive. My laptop is now in working order again but it's a mystery as to what happened on Tuesday. 🔍 Could someone give me a clue?  

Smooches and think Tink!

RIP Luke Perry 💔

Luke Perry passed away today at age 52. It's so sad. My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends. RIP Luke, thanks for playing Archie's dad, Fred Andrews. 🌹

The Pictures On My Computer (From January and February)

Between writing, I like to download fan-art and pictures from Google Search and Deviant Art. Searching for pictures relaxes me. I also like drawing for fun (my art isn't exactly amazing but still pretty good). If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook, you might have seen some of these online pictures already but if not, enjoy! Here's some pictures on my laptop: 

Gothic: 

  

Vampires: 

Fantasy: 

Peter Pan Fan-Art: 

Oswald the Lucky Rabbit Fan-Art: 

My Art: 

Creepy Disney Fan-Art: 

Of Course, Shane Dawson pictures: 

Smooches and think Tink!