Lent Entry #42

 

God,

I believe my imagination is such a powerful place for me spiritually because it’s where I feel the most like myself. There’s no pressure there, no expectations about how I’m supposed to pray or what I’m supposed to say. It’s just me, being honest.

When I enter my imagination, my mind doesn’t drift as much. My original characters from my fictional stories help anchor me, keeping me focused so I don’t get lost in overthinking or distractions. Instead, they guide me back to You.

In that space, my faith feels more real. Not distant or abstract, but alive. I can feel things more deeply, understand things differently, and connect with You in a way that actually makes sense to me.

I think this is how I’m meant to come to You —not perfectly, or traditionally, but honestly, creatively, and fully as myself.

Thank You for giving me an imagination that pulls me in but doesn’t pull me away from You. It actually brings me closer. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #41

 

God,

Today feels like a quiet scene. Nothing dramatic. Nothing overwhelming. Just…peaceful. Calm.

I’m in my beautifully chaotic bedroom: plushies everywhere, books stacked and scattered, and pillows soft and familiar. It’s not perfect, but it’s mine. It feels safe.

There’s a small rhythm to the morning. My solar bobblehead in the window, gently moving like it has its own little world—ticking, ticking, like time is passing but not rushing me.

I choked down my morning water (still working on that, lol), but my coffee? That I enjoyed. And breakfast felt good: Waffles with fruit, Greek yogurt, and chocolate syrup—simple things, but they made the moment feel full.

Sitting there, eating, watching YouTube, and just existing, I realized something: I’m content. Not struggling. Just steady. Just here. And I think that matters. And…I’m happy. A quiet kind of happy. 

Thank You for mornings like this—for calm instead of chaos, for enough instead of more, for a moment where I can just be.

Sometimes I expect something big to feel close to You, but maybe You’re just as present in mornings like this. In the quiet, in the routine, and in the soft, ordinary peace.

And right now, that feels like more than enough. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #40

 God,

If my soul were a room right now, it wouldn’t be perfectly clean or peaceful. It would be dimly lit—quiet, but not empty. There’s a soft, gentle light that never fully fills the space, but is still there...bright enough to see by. There are parts of the room that feel warm: memories, love, and the people I care about.

But there are also corners I avoid looking at—shelves filled with unopened books, and half-written stories scattered like they were abandoned mid-thought. Ideas I never finished. Pieces of myself I didn’t fully explore. Chapters I was too tired, too afraid, or too unsure to complete. Some things are messy. Not ruined—just…not finished yet.

There’s a chair in the middle of the room where I sit with You. Sometimes I talk. Sometimes I just sit there, hoping You understand what I don’t have words for.

Even though the room isn’t perfect, You’re still there. Not waiting for everything to be in place. Not asking me to be complete before You come closer. You sit with me in this quiet space, as if it’s enough to just be here together. And because You show me that kind of grace…I know where I need to show it, too.

I need to show grace in the moments where I get frustrated—with others, when they don’t understand me, and with myself, when I don’t understand myself.

I need to show grace when things feel unfinished, when people don’t meet my expectations, and when I feel like I’m falling short. Because Jesus didn’t wait for perfection before offering love. He met people right where they were. 

I want to learn to do the same: To be patient instead of critical. To be gentle instead of harsh. To give space for growth—in others, and in myself. Lent isn’t about becoming brighter all at once, but about letting You stay even in the quiet, unfinished places. Among the unopened books, the half-written stories, and the parts of me that are still changing. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Love and Chaos (a poem and a playlist)

 

Love can be a chaotic rollercoaster. 

It can bring you up, down, 

spin you all around. 

But despite all the loops and hoops you go through, 

The chaotic love lingers 

and never lets go.  

©Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2026

Smooches and think Tink! 💋❤💜

Images created using AI tools (ChatGPT / image generation), but it's my OC and concept.

Lent Entry #39

 

God,

Thank You for keeping my loved ones safe. Thank You for watching over them in ways I can’t always see. It brings me peace knowing they are in Your care. 

Please continue to guide and protect those I love. Surround them with Your presence and lead them in the right direction.

Help me never take their safety for granted. 

Happy Palm Sunday, Jesus! 🌿 💜

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #38

 

God,

When I’m feeling annoyed, please help me pause and breathe before I react. Calm my thoughts and steady my spirit so I don’t let small frustrations take over. Give me patience in the moment and remind me to respond with grace.

Help me keep my peace and let things go when they’re not worth holding onto. 

Also, please help others to see the error of their ways, like You help me see mine.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

My Latest OC

 

Anthony has dark-chocolate skin, faded black hair, and dark green eyes. He wears a 50s-style leather jacket, blue jeans, and biker boots. He appeared in my dream one night at a graveyard. He's playful, and zaps place to place. He’s the son of Morpheus (the Greek god of dreams). Anthony’s magic colors are black and silver. Adam is training him to be Magnificence’s new Dream Protector©, since Adam decided to protect me full-time and be my imaginary husband. Anthony will stay with us during the day and go back to Magnificence at night. He’s twenty-nine.

I might put him in a future story.

Image created using AI tools (ChatGPT / image generation), but it's my Original Character and concept.

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #37

 

God,

Thank You for the connections I have in my life. Thank You for the people who care for me, who stay, who listen, and who bring warmth into my days. Help me to appreciate them more and to be a source of kindness in their lives, too. Guide my heart to nurture these relationships with love, patience, and understanding. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #36

 

God,

If there’s anything in me that needs to fade this Lent, it’s my occasional anxiety.

It’s the overthinking on a dizzying loop and the way my mind runs ahead of me, imagining the worst before anything even happens. It steals my peace and makes me forget that You are already in control.

I lay my anxiety down—not perfectly, not all at once, but honestly. Because You never asked me to hold everything together by myself.

Help me release the fear of “what if.”
Help me trust You with the unknown.
Help me breathe without feeling like something is about to go wrong.

Let my anxiety fade, and let something new take its place.

Let peace live in me.
Let trust grow in me.
Let me feel safe in Your presence, even when life feels uncertain. 

Thank You for always holding me, even when I feel like I can’t hold myself.

Remind me that I am held, that I am not alone, and that I don’t have to fight every battle in my own mind.

Day by day, teach me how to rest in You. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #35

 

God,

Today I don’t come to ask for anything.

No requests, no worries, no lists of things I hope You’ll fix.

I just want to sit with You.

Thank You for being here—even in the moments I don’t notice, even in the quiet spaces where I forget to look.

Thank You for my life, for my breath, for the small things that feel ordinary but aren’t.

Thank You for staying, even when my mind wanders, or my faith feels distant.

Right now, I’m not asking for answers.

I’m not asking for change.

I’m just here.

And I know…somehow, that’s enough. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #34

 

God,

Thank You for nostalgia—the quiet, tender gift of remembering.

Thank You for the moments I can look back on with a smile instead of sadness. For the memories that feel like soft light instead of something heavy. For showing me that my past doesn’t have to hurt to be meaningful.

Thank You for how far I’ve come, even in ways I didn’t notice at the time; For the growth hidden in ordinary days, and for the strength You were building in me when I didn’t yet understand it.

When I revisit old songs, old places, or old versions of myself, please help me see them with gratitude instead of longing. Remind me that every version of me was held by You, guided by You, and never alone.

Let my memories be a reminder—not of what I’ve lost—but of how much I’ve lived, how much I’ve learned, and how much You’ve carried me through.

Thank You for the past, for the present, and for the person I’m still becoming. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit;

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #33

 

God,

Thank You for showing me that my faith and my spiritual practices don’t have to be in conflict. Instead, they can come together in a way that brings me closer to You.

In crystals, I don’t seek power—I see reminders of the beauty and intention You placed in creation. In journaling, I don’t just write—I open my heart to You, turning my thoughts into quiet prayers. In music, I don’t just listen—sometimes I feel something deeper, something that grounds me and gently brings me back to Your presence.

These things don’t pull me away from You. They steady me. They help me breathe, reflect, and reconnect.

Please bless the things that help me feel grounded. Let them always lead me toward peace, toward truth, and toward You. Keep my heart centered so that everything I turn to for comfort becomes a path that leads back to You.

Help others find their own ways to feel grounded and connected, too, whatever that may look like for them. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,  

Amen/Blessed be.

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #32

 

God,

Thank You for my thirst for learning and for the wit You’ve given me.

While watching the TV series, The Chosen, I felt drawn to the character of Abigail. She was kind and intelligent, and her connection with Jesus Christ stood out to me. When I looked deeper into her story, I saw how wise and brave she truly was—how she protected her household through courage and understanding, stepping into danger to bring peace.

Please help me, and others, grow in that same wisdom and courage in our own lives. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be.

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #31

 

God,

Thank You for the time I get to spend with my family.
For the small moments that mean so much.
Help me not take them for granted,
and remind me that this time is a gift.

Please remind others that their time with loved ones is important too. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #30

 

God,

Thank You for music—the way it speaks when I can’t, and holds what I don’t know how to explain. Thank You for giving me a heart that feels deeply, even when it’s overwhelming, and for not leaving me there alone.

In songs, I find peace, understanding, and pieces of myself I don’t know how to name. Please keep guiding my heart gently, and help me use what I feel in a way that brings light, not weight. 

Please help others find this creative peace too. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.    

Lent Entry #29

 

God,

Thank You for my gut health. Thank You for how my body works behind the scenes, even when I don’t notice. Help me not to fixate on things I can’t control. When I feel anxious, remind me to unclench, breathe, and release. Let my body relax.

Please help others to relax and not overthink, too. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #28

 

God,

Thank You for giving me the ability to create worlds while keeping my feet on the ground when needed.

Thank You for imagination and the escape it provides. Help me remember it’s okay in small doses, but not to get lost in it.

When I start to overthink or hold on too tightly, help me let go and trust You. Help me not to stress over things I can’t control.

Please help others feel grounded and less stressed, too. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be.

Smooches and think Tink.

Happy St. Patty's Day

 

Happy St. Patty's Day, from Adam!

Image created using AI tools (ChatGPT / image generation), but it's my original character and concept.

Smooches and  think Tink

Lent Entry #27

God,

I’m just checking in. To be honest, I don't know what to say today. No prayer is perfect, and this definitely isn’t, but it’s real.

Thank You for everything You’ve given me—even the things I forget to notice. I know I have more than I realize sometimes.

I get caught up in small things a lot. I overthink, get frustrated, or just stay stuck in my head longer than I should. And I know those things aren’t as big as they feel in the moment.

So I’m giving that to You. All of it.

Help me slow down. Help me keep the right perspective. Help me remember how blessed I actually am, even when I don’t fully feel it.

Please help others to see that their prayers don’t have to be perfect, just from the heart.

And even when I don’t say things right or show up the way I should, thank You for being patient with me anyway.

I’m trying. That’s where I’m at right now.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #26

 

God,

Thank You for the necessities in my life—food, clean water, a home, and a loving family. These blessings sustain me every day, even when I forget to notice them.

When small inconveniences happen, like the internet going out, please remind me to keep the right perspective. Help me remember how much I truly have and to remain grateful instead of frustrated.

Please remind others not to sweat the small things. Also, help those who are struggling to receive the basic necessities they need each day.

Teach me to appreciate the simple things and to never take anything for granted.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit;

As above, so below,

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #25

 

God,

Thank You for the ability to empathize with others. Please help me remember that everyone carries wounds I cannot see, and help me look beyond the hurt someone may have caused to the humanity within them.

Please help me forgive and empathize with my enemies, past and present. Sometimes my anger feels strong, and forgiveness feels difficult. When I struggle, guide my heart and calm my thoughts.

You forgave even those who hurt You and Your Son. Help me learn that kind of mercy and patience in my own life.

I know I am not perfect. I am only human, and I am still growing. Help me become a more patient and forgiving person, little by little.

Please let forgiveness bring peace to my heart, not bitterness. 

Please remind others to have empathy and compassion. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #24

 

God, 

Thank You for the gift of a vivid imagination You blessed me with. Thank You for the stories that grow in my mind and the characters that keep me company when I need comfort.

Even when I write dark or scary stories, You give me peace through my imagination. Some characters bring comfort, guidance, and encouragement, helping me stay steady even in the worlds I create.

I’m grateful for the characters You help me imagine—they bring strength and courage when my thoughts feel heavy. Through them, You remind me to keep dreaming, creating, and believing in the impossible.

Please help me use the imagination You gave me in a good and hopeful way, and let the stories I create bring light, comfort, and joy. 

Please open others' minds, and let them know that imagining isn't only for children. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink.

Lent Entry #23

 

 God,

Thank You for Mother Mary’s gentle, committed courage.

Even in the impossible, she trusted Your plan.

Let her light guide me—soft as my sparkling crystals,

shimmering in my heart and around the words I write.

Help me hold hope, small sparks of faith,

and believe in the miracles You whisper into my life.

Please let her light shine on others as well. Let their faith glisten. 

In the name of Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

My Biker Dream Last Night

 

Last night, my imagination took me somewhere exhilarating.

In the dream, I fell in love with a biker who was my original character, Adam, but rougher. He had a buzz cut and this intense, dangerous energy about him. The kind of person who would make everyone else nervous, but somehow I knew I was safe with him.

The dream took place in downtown St. Louis at night. Everything felt alive: the streets of the city rushing past, lights everywhere, the feeling of movement and freedom. I ended up running away and joining his biker gang. It didn’t feel scary at all. It felt like stepping into a wild adventure, where normal life didn’t matter anymore. His biker gang was like a modern-day Robin Hood, stealing from the rich to give to the poor. 

My Aunt Margie and Uncle Dave found me with the gang in the streets. Uncle Dave was yelling at Adam, and even though I didn't want to leave, I went with my aunt and uncle to avoid a fight. But as my uncle was driving me home, I jumped out of the moving car without getting hurt. I called Adam on a red cell phone and confessed my feelings for him. He came and picked me up on his black-and-violet motorcycle.

At one point, Adam gave me a black choker to wear. It felt important, like a symbol that showed the world I belonged to him and with the gang. I remember feeling happy when he gave it to me—excited and close to him. 

The rest of the dream was us riding together on his motorcycle through the city. I was behind him, holding on while we sped through the streets. He felt protective but also dangerous, like someone who could handle anything that came our way.

The dream didn’t really end with a conclusion. It just stopped while we were still riding through the city together—lights passing, engine roaring, still in the middle of the journey. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #22

 

God, 

Thank You for everything I have today—the little joys, the love around me, the peace in my heart. Help me to be patient for what I want and to trust Your timing. Teach me to enjoy the moment and not rush things. 

Please teach others to be patient and not rush. Your blessings for them will come in time. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #21

 

God, 

Thank You for giving me determination and helping me quiet my mind when I have writer's block. 

During Lent, I'm reflecting on the determination that Jesus showed in following His path with faith and courage. This reminds me to keep going even when things get difficult. 

Thank You for guiding my thoughts and helping me persevere. 

Please give others the perseverance during major and minor things. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #20

 

God, 

Thank You for this happy and easy-going day. I'm grateful for the peace and lightness I feel today. 

Sometimes the best days are the simple ones, and today reminds me how good these moments are. 

Thank You for this gift. 

Please bless others with this joy and calmness, too. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Ho;y Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #19

 

God, 

Thank You for placing this blessing of imagination inside me---an inner-power that helps me create, hope, and dream. Instead of being cynical all the time, I look at some things with wonder and whimsy. 

Thank You for this gift of creativity. 

Please remind people to open their minds and see the enchantment in the world. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #18

 

God, 

Thank You for helping me live with my cerebral palsy and for giving me strength each day. I am grateful for the ways You help me through challenges and for the blessings You give me.

Sometimes I feel a little uncertain about things, but I am choosing to trust You. Give me patience when I get frustrated with myself. Fill my heart with peace, gratitude, and hope. Thank You for the kindness, support, and love that surround me each day. 

Please give patience and strength to anyone who needs it. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink. 

Lent Entry #17

 

God, 

During this season of Lent, I'm thinking about kindness. Life can feel heavy sometimes, but small moments---a kind word, a peaceful minute, or something that makes me smile---remind me that light is there. I believe those moments are little reminders from You that I'm not alone. 

Thank You for the quiet kindness that keeps me going, and for the hope that grows even in difficult times. Please help me notice these moments more and share that kindness with others. 

Please give these reminders to anyone who needs them as well. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches  and think Tink      

Lent Entry #16

 

God, 

Thank You for knowing my heart, even when my mind feels disorganized and is going at turbo speed. 

Sometimes, thoughts that I didn't invite or want just appear. 

Help me remember that a thought isn't the same as who I am.

Give me peace to let those thoughts pass and return my focus to You and my loved ones. 

Please give peace to anyone who needs it as well tonight.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink  

Lent Entry #15

 

God,

Please give me a little extra strength today. Help me be patient with my body and stabilize my mood as the day goes on. 

Thank You for staying with me during the small, ordinary moments. 

Please help those who need a little encouragement as well. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below. 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink 

My Dream Last Night 🖤

 

Last night, I had a dream that my family and I were staying in an old, Gothic castle. One night, I heard the song "The Music of the Night" was playing somewhere in the castle. I followed the sound down a dark corridor, and at the end, stood Adam (my original character) as the Phantom Of The Opera. He led me into a secret passage. I was now walking into an underground palace with many rooms and people. I could have anything I wanted there: coffee, food, swimming, dancing, music. When I was ready to leave, he playfully hid my cameo shoes. I was going from room to room, looking for them when I woke up. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #14

 

God, 

Thank You for Daddio. He's a great dad and one of my best friends. Thank You for having Mommio and Daddio meet at 7-Eleven all those years ago. I think he was destined to be my and Amanda's Daddio all along. Our family is so blessed! 

Please guide those who are lost to their destined path. 

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below, 

Amen/Blessed be. 

Smooches and think Tink

Lent Entry #13

 

God, 

Thank You for meeting me in the middle of the sometimes chaotic noise in my head.

At times, my mind feels loud, fast, bouncy. 

But You're steady. You're not overwhelmed by these thoughts. 

Even when I can't seem to slow down, You're calm without being distant. 

Teach me how to rest inside, even when I don't feel quiet. 

Please help those who need rest and steadiness in their lives.

In the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; 

As above, so below,  

Amen/Blessed be.

Smooches and think Tink