From Halloween 2021

 

Happy Halloween!

Smooches and think Tink!

Wonderland Camp (October 2021)

During the weekend of October 22nd, I went to Wonderland Camp. I was in the Alice Hall A cabin. I saw my old friends: "Mama Cookie," Alyssa, Kenize, Kayde, Ty, Andy, Cali, Jan, and Sarah. I met some new friends: Rachel and Haley. I was so excited to be there as always. Camp is starting to become an October tradition for me. 🎃 

Later that Friday evening, we had a bonfire. We sang the silly camp songs (or Ty tried to sing the songs lol), joked around, and ate gooey s'mores. I got to eat an extra chocolate bar too. It was a fun night. 

On Saturday morning, it was rainy. After breakfast, we watched the movie, Hocus Pocus (an excellent Halloween movie to watch). I doodled on paper and watched the movie. It was relaxing. 

We went to Archery after the movie. Kenize and Ty helped me aim and one of my arrows hit the target! Then, after lunch, we played Bingo. I usually don't get too engrossed in a game of Bingo and I end up just joking around during a game. This day, I started to joke around but I finally won! I got a hand-made, blue, plaid teddy bear as a prize. I named it Bob to remember my and Kenize's joke about Ty. I never noticed it before until she pointed it out to me but Ty looks like Bob Ross so much that it's uncanny. Every time that we saw him, we called him Bob (lol). 🧸😄 The bear is the reminder of that goofy joke now. 

There was then a scavenger hunt in the cabins. We had to look for random, Halloween-themed things. It was easy but fun. 

After the hunt, we had Crafts, where we were coloring and face-painting. A lot of other campers wanted something pretty or cute on their faces but I wanted something gory (of course). 

Andy gave me a fake, bloody wound on my head. They did an awesome job! 

After face-painting and when the rain stopped, we took a "haunted" hayride. There were "ghosts" jumping at us in the trees. It was so funny! 

The atmosphere was perfect for the haunted chapel and the Halloween carnival later that evening; cold, damp, lightning flashing, and thunder rumbling in the distance. I kept my fake head wound but I put on my Jack Skellington costume. I just said that Jack had an accident, lol. 

The haunted chapel was a legit haunted house; creepy music and sounds, scary clowns popping balloons in people's faces, zombies and ghouls jumping at us, and even had a Chucky doll (Yes, believe it or not, I went near that demonic doll, lol). Camp went next level and I loved it! Andy, please do the haunted house every year because BRAVO!!! 👏 I had a blast that night! 

Sunday was sort of a blur but I had such a good time that weekend. It was nice to see some old friends and make some new. I also love having total creepy fun! 

Happy Halloween!!!! 🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃🎃 

Smooches and think Tink! 💋🧚           

MY EYES! (a horror Halloween story)

 

My eyes! The pain is excruciating! What's happening?! I woke up a few hours ago in my queen-sized, canopy bed in my New York City loft and my eyes still can't open! My eyes are swollen, extremely inflamed; bleeding like a scarlet, hot stream running down my face. I can't see anything but red. Then, I realize with terror that my inner-demons that I always fight off are now clawing and stabbing me behind my eyes, trying to crack the windows to my soul. I'm still in my bed, writhing in agony. The louder that I scream, sob, and plea for relief, the more I'm tortured with intense eye pain! 

I can't take it anymore! I just need to make it stop! I sit up in bed. Desperately feeling around my nightstand with my hand, I manage to find my curved blade that I keep by my bed for protection. Forcing my upper-eyelid open, I slowly begin to push and scoop each eyeball out of each socket with the blade. Even though I'm adding to the pain and more blood is spraying everywhere, I tell myself between shrieking that this will end my suffering. 

My eyeballs finally plop out and are dangling from the sockets. I sever my eyeballs from the nerves and arteries, and throw them across the room. I'm unable to see it but my shadowy inner-demons soar out of my now empty eye sockets and disappear into the walls. Blood is still gushing, I'm now blind, and I feel faint but at least the pain is gone. I can't feel anything. It's a good thing, right?

©Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2021 

Song and video by: Rusty Cage 

I'm currently recovering from pink eye. When it was bad, it felt like I was being stabbed in my eyes. My illness inspired a mini story. Don't worry, my eyes didn't really bleed; just felt like it, lol. Happy Halloween! 

Smooches and think Tink! 

   

SHANE DAWSON IS BACK!

 

Shane is back! While I was listening to an audio book on Youtube, I got a notification that Shane posted a video. I couldn't believe my eyes. I never been so happy to see a notification before! I clicked on it so fast, trying to hold back a gleeful squeal. Shane is doing a ghost-hunting series. This is the best October treat ever!

Welcome back Baby Boy!

Smooches and think Tink!!

 

Never Forget September 11th

 

Never 

Forget 

Think 

Tink.

Smooches.

Wendy Shouldn't Have Grown Up (my Wendy Darling/Peter Pan video edit)

 

Wendy Darling regrets growing up and misses Peter Pan and Neverland. 

Click to watch:

 Song: Homecoming Queen? 

By: Kelsea Ballerini 

I do not own to the rights to the art and music. 

Smooches and think Tink!

Happy Birthday Sis! 🍰🎈💟

 

Happy birthday to the greatest big sis and my best friend: Amanda! 

I love you. 

Smooches and think Tink! 

Happy 33rd Birthday Shane Dawson! 🎂💙

 

Happy birthday Shane! I hope that you have an awesome, awesome day with family and friends!! You mean so much to fans and we think that you deserve only happiness. 💙 

I 💖 you Baby Boy! 😘 

Smooches and think Tink! 💋🧚🏻‍♂️

JUST SHUT UP, THAT'S ENOUGH!

 

Since 2020, strangers on Twitter have tried to tell me not to like Shane Dawson anymore. I'm used to it and I usually just ignore it. I love Shane and no one will change it.  Tonight, it wasn't a random person. It was another Youtuber named That Creepy Reading, whom I used to watch all the time. He was picking on me on Twitter for being a Shane Dawson stan, accusing me of "blind celebrity worshipping." When in reality, I think that he was just upset that I was defending Shane.

THAT'S IT, THAT'S ENOUGH! 😡 I'm done being nice! No one can tell me what to do or think. I HAVE MY OWN MIND! If you don't like that or you insist on hopping on the hate Shane Dawson bandwagon without knowing the full story, JUST GET OUT OF MY WAY! JUST SHUT THE HELL UP!! You're just hating Shane and turning him into the YouTube villain so you can seem "woke." Yes, I'm a stan (an extreme fan-girl at times) but I'm not brainless! I just can't stand seeing Shane get targeted by hate repeatedly, almost on a loop, over things that he did and/or said years ago and I'm sick and tired of cancel culture!!!! ANYTHING AND ANYONE CAN BE CANCELED OVER THE SLIGHTEST THING NOWADAYS! ALSO, ARE PEOPLE REALLY GOING TO PUNISH SHANE FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE FOR PAST MISTAKES?! HE HAS GROWN FROM THESE MISTAKES AND EDUCATED HIMSELF. HE KNOWS THAT THOSE THINGS WERE WRONG!!!!!!

That Creepy Reading, you hurt my feelings, tried to make me feel ashamed for liking Shane (but failed), and embarrassed me. I didn't want you to jump to conclusions about Shane from just watching clips of old videos. When I asked you if you thoroughly researched for your upcoming "Worse Youtubers" video, you sent me such an arrogant reply. You're going to add to the lies about Shane but that's okay. You just lost a subscriber. Whatever you say will come back to you three-fold, dude. 

 Smooches and think Tink 💋 🧚 

Ah, I feel better...or do I? 😜

Wonderland Camp: June 2021

 

On June 20th, I spent a week at Wonderland Camp at the Lake of Ozarks. I was very excited and a bit jiggery because I hadn't been there for almost two years but I was ready to embrace new adventures! It was pirate week and I was in Alice Hall B cabin. I saw my old friends: Ann, Cookie, Kayde, Shauna, Jeff, Jay, Mark, Ty, and Caili. I also made some new friends: Becca, Alyssa, Kraylin, Shelby, Monique, Logan, and Ryan. On Sunday, Cookie, Ann, and I spent the evening playing on the splash pad. 

It was so much fun to just run in and out of the water. I've missed that thing! Then, we ate some gooey and scrumptious s'mores by the campfire, laughing with friends. Even Kortney Keith facetimed me and we talked. It was a good night. 

On Monday morning, we rode the tractor down to the water front and rode the boat. I sat by Alyssa while Ann and Cookie sat across from me. It was a little cold and cloudy while we were on the water but we all were bundled with blankets and our hoodies. The waves, as the boat sped through the water, made the boat rock up and down. I didn't fall asleep this time. I was laughing and talking with people. I was also looking at the huge condos, as we sped by. I wondered if rich people were staying by the camp because the condos looked like castles on the water. 

During rest time, Cookie and I were about to relax and read my Betty & Veronica comic in a swing, when Shauna drove by in the golf-cart. 

Cookie loves riding the golf-cart so we asked for a ride. We were ecstatic when she said yes. 

Cookie and I squealed and giggled, as we sped around camp. My heart was racing and my stomach was being tickled from the inside. The golf-cart ride felt like a bumpy rollercoaster while wind hit our faces and we waved hi at people that were walking by. It was so much fun! 

Later that afternoon, we climbed the rock wall. I like going all the way to the top. The view is awesome! I feel like an enormous giant, looking down at the world.

After the rock wall, Cookie, Ann, Kraylin, and I did the wobbly bridge and the zipline at the treehouse. The wobbly bridge moves back and forth. It wasn't the wisest idea for me to drive on it on my own, especially when I can barely drive my wheelchair straight in the first place, lol. It was so easy to imagine falling off the edge, plummeting to my death like some scene from Final Destination (lol) but it gave me an adrenaline rush. I only hit the mesh sides twice and Kraylin helped me across at the end.

Then, I went on the zipline. I've always loved the thing. It gets my blood pumping! When I zoom across, I feel like Peter Pan, flying above the trees. I can see the whole camp from the treetops. It's fun and feels so freeing. 

Later in the evening, we built carboard ships to race. I played with slime from Shelby's craft bag while the counselors were cutting out our cabin's ship. I'll admit that I was more interested in the slime than the ship making. (Sorry not sorry, lol). The ship races were then in the pool and campers cheered on for their cabins. It was a nice night. 

On Tuesday morning, we got to shoot "pirates" (aka the counselors) with water guns. It was so funny to see the "pirates"  running around. 

Alyssa was helping me shoot and we were belly laughing. My water gun was sort of broke and leaked on me, making me soaked, as I was shooting. I had a blast! 

Then, in Arts and Crafts, I tie-dyed a new camp shirt, using watermelon colors with a splash of purple. I also drew some pictures of Slenderman, Blair Witch stick figures, and Peter Pan on the back of coloring pages. I wonder if I sometimes creep out the staff, lol. After Crafts, we had Archery. Kraylin helped me aim and shoot.  I only hit  the target with one arrow but I had a good time. 

During rest time, Becca and I went on a walk. Even though I'm not an outdoors person, I thought that the woods were pretty. It looked like a bright water painting. For free time, Cookie, Ann, Shelby, and I went to the splash pad. The water was colder but felt good because of the hot day. 

Later in the evening, it was the camp carnival. Cookie and I played a few games. We also hung out with Jeff, Jay, and Mark for a while but we winded up just relaxing and people-watching for the rest of it. It was a good day.  

On Wednesday morning, we had Music. We listened to our favorite songs and played games. The games were like Candy Crush but were projected onto the chapel's floor so people could roll and/or stomp on the targets. It was cool. 

After Music, we had Arts and Crafts. We got to paint on counselors with brushes. I got a little too into it (lol) and instead of using my brush, I began to smear paint on the counselors with my hands like finger-painting. It was so fun and satisfying.   

Later in the afternoon, we had Nature. We went on a treasure hunt. We had to look for Easter eggs for clues to a treasure chest. The treasure chest was in the sand, where people play volleyball. I got a fake emerald ring from the "treasure." 

We had pool time after rest time but Cookie and I didn't swim. We just hung out and put our feet in the water. We talked, giggled about boys like two schoolgirls (lol), tried to tan, and splashed. It was beyond relaxing. 

Much later in the evening, the talent show started. There were a lot of good songs and talents. There was even a guy that impersonated Popeye the Sailor Man. It was so entertaining! For my talent, I sang "Lost Boy"  by Ruth B. 

From the sensory/costume room, I got a green vest that reminded me of Peter Pan, a brown pirate hat, and a green, bedazzled bow-tie that I put on my wrist. 

When I got on stage, Ann and Cookie surprised me with a sign that read: Camp Mom Loves Lena (I affectionately call Cookie my camp mom all the time). The sign was so, so sweet! Everyone also liked my song. It was a wonderful show and day! 

Thursday morning was supposed to be Pirate Camp Day but it got rained out. We had to run into the crafts cabin, then our cabin, then into Miller Hall. When we got into Miller Hall, we got to watch the movie, Hook. I was of course very content. Watching any Peter Pan movie makes me happy. 

After rest time, there was a pirate show. In the show, they "taught" us how to be pirates. It was hilarious! 

After the show, I then went into Miller Hall to play games and stuff. I start playing Just Dance with people. It was fun and I was surprised that I was nailing most of the arm movements. It could be a good arm exercise for me. I was so obsessed with it! 

Then, our cabin started to get ready for the dance. I wore a multicolored, flowing, bedazzled blouse, a pair of skinny jeans, and white sneakers. I wore purple eyeshadow, put pink jewels on the corners of my eyes (I was trying something different), and wore red lipstick. I also curled and pinned up my bangs because my hair is getting long. 

After dinner, the dance started. Music boomed from Miller Hall, people were cheering, lights were spinning, as people slowly went in. You have no idea how much I missed this perfect chaos. I danced, sang at the top of my lungs, and laughed with friends all night. Cookie and I were both hyped up on Pepsi floats, lol.  I'll never forget that euphoric feeling from that night. 

Friday was bittersweet as always. A part of me was ready to go home but another part of me wanted to stay there forever. At breakfast, I got the Best Makeup Award for my look from the night before. Before my mommio and daddio picked me up, I was making a mental picture of every face, sound, and sight. I knew that I was coming back in October but this week was special. I was so happy to see Cookie and others. I was happy that I got away from the pandemic stuff for a while. Things felt normal. I'm happy that this place is my escape, my secondary home. Oh, Wonderland, I love. 

Smooches and think Tink!

Happy Birthday Granny Annie!

 

Dear Grandma, 

Happy birthday! Are they having a grand party up there for you? I bet that they are since you loved big get-togethers. Maybe you'll let someone cook for you up there. 😄 I'm going to camp on the 20th. I'm so excited about it! I know that you love my stories about camp. I miss you. We all miss and love you but we know that you'll always watch over us until we all meet again. 

Smooches and think Tink. 💋🤟🧚🦉