Did You Know? Did You Know?

I sort of did this on my Twitter account last night because Riverdale wasn't going to be on until next week and I was bored. I just did this on a whim but I'm also going to do it here for fun. I'm going to list some random facts about myself. If you ever wanted to know more about me, here you go! 😉

Fact #1 My favorite colors are black & purple. 💜🖤

Fact #2 My favorite songs of all time: "Lucky" by Britney Spears, "Stronger" by Britney Spears, "Somewhere I Belong" by Linkin' Park, All of the songs on *NSYNC's first CD, "Lost Boy" by Ruth B, "The Vacation Song" by Shane Dawson, "You Don't Own Me" by Lesley Gore, "Can't Help Falling in Love" by Elvis Presley, and "Welcome to my Life" by Simple Plan. 

Fact #3 Originally, I started writing my book at age 13 on my communication board but it broke and the chapters got erased 😮 so I started over at age 18 on a laptop. 😋I'm on Chapter 56 now. I don't know what page number I'm on, lol! 😀 It's a big book right now. I haven't finish or edit it yet. 

Fact #4 I was in a K-Mart ad for shoes when I was a kid. 😎 (It was in the newspaper). 

Fact #5 I hate the sounds of balloons popping & smoke alarms going off. 🙉 I think that it's a cerebral palsy thing lol.  😁

Fact #6 My favorite places: my bedroom, the mall, Target, WalMart, the library, Taco Bell, and Wonderland Camp.

Fact #7 Favorite candy: M&M's, Peeps, and candy corn. 

Fact #8 I started writing short stories in fourth grade. 

Fact #9 I'm obsessed with Peter Pan! 💚

Fact #10 I love the Archie comics. 

Fact #11  I was in choir in junior high and high school. 

Fact #12 My best friends: Kortney, Jennifer (aka Cookie), and of course, my big sis Amanda. 💕 

A Creepy Fun Question Time: What would You Do If An Evil Mickey Mouse Tried To Eat Your Soul?

I really do love anything Disney but lately, I've been having nightmares about an evil Mickey Mouse. Don't worry, I still love Mickey and all of the characters. I'm only freaked out during the actual nightmares but when I wake up, I laugh it off and go back to loving Disney (the nightmares are probably due to all the Disney CreepyPastas that I've been reading and hearing before bed, lol). 

Question time: What would you do if an evil Mickey Mouse came out of the TV and tried to eat your soul? 

I would quickly build a huge mouse trap. When his whole body is smashed under the trap, I would pour holy water on him and run him and the trap over with my wheelchair a couple of times just make sure that he was dead. 





Disclaimer: I am a big fan of Disney. I own most of the Disney movies. I don't think that it's evil at all. This was just for creepy fun.

Do not read this entry to children!

Saying Goodbye to Bones (Spoiler Alerts)

After twelve years, Bones aired the last episode of the series last night. There was an explosion at the lab and Temperence, aka "Bones", had slight, temporary memory loss. What tugged at my heart strings was that she could still remember things about her friends and family. She just couldn't remember the scientific stuff for a while. They finally found the bomber and Bones gradually got her memory back but the whole episode was a trip down memory lane from throughout the seasons. It also showed that characters were changing in wonderful ways. It was a happy ending. I loved it.

I've been watching this show since I was a teenager and now, at thirty, I watched it end. Saying goodbye to these characters gave me a happy but sort of melancholy feeling. It'll always be one of my favorite shows. 

Late-night Writing (Happy Weekend)

Happy weekend! I'm excited just to hang out with my sister this weekend. We'll just watch TV and eat pizza probably but it's bliss for me. Do y'all have any plans? Well, if you do, have fun! 

Smooches 💋

On my Own in my Bedroom (a Poem)

On my Own in my Bedroom  

I enjoy being on the own, 
being surrounded by my dear possessions in my bedroom.
It's not a time of feeling "Oh, I'm so alone"; 
It's a deeply satisfying time of my imagination running amok and of relaxing self-reflection.


(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2017 


Poet Notes: It's World Poetry Day and this poem suddenly popped in my head today. I like hanging out in my room a lot and people think that I feel lonely at times but I'm not. I'm very happy and I feel independent when I'm on my own. 

Youtube Is Blocking LGBTQ+ Content?!

I support the LGBTQ+ community because I believe that everyone, no matter what, should have equal rights. Today, I read that Youtube is now blocking LGBTQ+ content if the Restricted Mode is on. The Restricted Mode is for blocking inappropriate content. I tested it out. I left my Restricted mode off and searched for Gigi Gorgeous's video, "I Am Transgender". While the mode was off, I found the video right away but when I turned it on and searched for the same video, it was completely gone. Then, it came back when I turned the mode back off.I would understand if the videos had too much violence, or were too offensive or too sexual and Youtube was trying to hide these things from younger viewers (I monitor what my niece watches on Youtube, I get it) but the LGBTQ+ videos that Youtube are now blocking have none of these things. It's mostly coming out videos and videos of youtubers, who already came out, sharing their feelings, thoughts, and their experiences. They're not shoving their beliefs and lifestyles down other people's throats or anything. They're exercising their right to the freedom of speech and they're just being themselves. Also, these videos could help teenagers/young adults who are unsure about their sexual orientation or who are too scared to come out. They could see what they're feeling is okay. They could see other people who are going through the same things. Being something else other than straight isn't inappropriate or offensive. I hope that Youtube will change this. 

   

Question Time: What Would You Do If a Serial Killer Was Coming After You?

What would you do if a serial killer was coming after you? 

I would run the killer over with my wheelchair repeatedly,crushing all of the bones in the killer's body and making blood squirt out of the killer's nose and mouth until the killer would squeal for mercy and die. 

Disclaimer: I'm not a violent person at all. This is written for fun.I just have a dark and twisted imagination at times.Violence is never the answer. However, I would run over someone's ass though if they threatened my life or my family's lives.

This Weekend

I just want to relax this weekend: read, maybe write, and binge on SVU reruns and Youtube videos. I'm feeling like blahhh at the moment so I'm hoping for a laid back weekend. I just want the simple things so I can think Tink. 

  

"THE LOTTERY" (Shane Dawson's Short Film)

If you need something to cheer you up, watch Shane's short film, "The Lottery" from December. It's hilarious and heart-warming. ⇧ I love it.  

My Mind (a Poem)

My Mind  

My mind  is a labyrinth. 
Each turn is an adventure, 
A wall is sometimes a puzzle to solve. 
Sometimes I want out, 
sometimes it's my only escape. 
I'm the mistress of my thoughts. 
My secrets, you won't be able to possess; 
I'm reckless, obsessive, imaginative. 
There are things that others won't comprehend, 
things that others won't believe, 
but this is my mind. 




(c)Lena Holdman, all rights reserved 2017 

Author Notes: This poem just popped into my head. My imagination is a surreal but yet twisted place.

Can I Have This Dance? (a dream entry)

Before you read about my awesome, romantic dream that I had last night, I wanted you to know that this entry isn't for Valentine's day. I won't totally go into my anti-Valentine's Day rant again (most of you already know how I feel about this day) but I don't think that we need a holiday for us to have love and romance. With that said, here's what happened in my dream: 

I was at a dance in a fancy ballroom. I was wearing a flowing, powder blue dress (I've always wanted a dress like Wendy Darling in real life). 

The characters from the Archie comics and Disney characters were there.  

My mom was my chaperone for some odd reason, (lol). Then, Shane Dawson and Lily Marston walked in.  

I wanted to ask Shane to dance but I was too nervous. Lily was dancing with Archie. Veronica Lodge then encouraged me to go over and talk to Shane. I slowly walked towards him and tapped his shoulder. 

"Hi Lena," he said with a grin, turning around to face me. I didn't know how he knew my name but I didn't care. We were talking and he was so funny and sweet of course. Then, a slow song came on. 

Ignoring the butterflies in my stomach, I asked: "Wanna dance?" 

"I can try," he smiled shyly. 

He slowly twirled me towards him. His hands were on my waist and my arms were around his neck. We were swaying back and forth, smiling and laughing. It felt like we were gliding around the dance floor. I rested my head on his shoulder for a few minutes and as everyone watched us dance, I gradually woke up to my mom's voice.